The Freedom

2009-05-27T15:35:00.006+08:00

I really don't know what happened to my tempalate but it really pissed me off. I just can't delete the codes from the tempalate and it will hanged aka not responding. It's time for me to move. I won't delete the memories here but from today onwards,I will post my entry to another url. I'm gonna miss my checkitout-gerl.blogspot.com. :(

I've moved: Please click on the link below. More stories coming up on another blog! =)

thenumber7-eleven.blogspot.com

2009-05-25T14:30:00.005+08:00

This picture was taken last Saturday where I did some volunteery work over at Jamiyaah. I've to admit that this is my first time doing this kind of work. I was a bit awkward at the first place as the people there have known each other already. But as the day goes by,slowly I get to join them and their kecohness. Thanks to the cousin for inviting me to do this volunterry work. =) These are the people who were incharge in admin work while the guys obviously not in the picture were packing the foods accordingly.

In such a short minute,I had my first conversation with Salihin. He made me laugh non-stop with his lame jokes.

Salihin: Why you kept laughing?
Me: *Continue to laugh*
Salihin: Did I make a joke??
Me: Hahaa. Yes.
Salihin: It's not funny lah. What so funny?
Me: Yes. Because you are a joker! *Continue to laugh*
Salihin: *Showing his two thumbs up* You are the great...test!
Me: *rolled my eyes*

That was some conversation I had with him. He even talked about what to wear for this year Hari Raya. LOL.

Continue about my voluntery work,I had so much fun attending to the people especially the oldies where they need to sign before getting the foods. Not so many candidates came on that day. I had to bare with the hotness. I have to put aside all that cause I had a lot of fun. The jokes,the laughter and making new friends. There's a group of guys kept on memorising our names. I was stunned when they called me Haslinda. LOL. Zaman secondary school ok. =) I want to go there again!

The cousin and I. Do we look alike,here? =)

Once everything finished,we headed to Marina Square to have our dinner and boy the place was crowded with people,couples,so on. I almost forgot that it was Saturday. I hate crowded places. Dang!

HMV. On my way home,my feets were cramped and I've to slide my feets. Walao!

I miss my friends already. Can't wait to meet them the day after today. Hehe. =)

...there's people who are suffering more than we do...

2009-05-21T13:18:00.006+08:00

First,you denied it. Second,you admit it. Well done! Your game is finally over. From the start,I knew it was HIM! Who else,I know,you people know. Don't say the word 'fitnah' if you did not know the meaning of the word. You accused me that I was blaming and suspected you,but in the end,you revealed your own idnetity. AT LAST.

How I wished,I can meet him and give him one tight slap on his fcuking cheeks? Just a wish but I couldn't cause,I hate to see or to meet him ever again. HATE HIM!! But,we had a little confrontation via smsed. Ikutkan hati,aku malas nk layan budak yng takder otak! But,due to know whether it's him or not,I FORCED,let me spelt it out for you,F.O.R.C.E.D myself to so-called entertained this confrontation.

I have the rights to feel angry after what you've done to me. So,why must you feel that you are the victimed here? The reasons for you doing that is because, I AM NOT A FORGIVEABLE person and I CALLED YOU COWARD?? Why must you be angry when you acted like one,C? OMG,what I called you is like fucking 3 months ago. The day where,my heart is completely broken. 3 months ago for goodness sakes. Why must you brought it up again? You are not matured enough to think.

Seeking for forgiveness? There you go again,sorry sorry and sorry. You made everyone including me a hard time. Using your beloved gf and her friend's names is damn wrong. Ouh well,it's easy to say SORRY. I had enough with your SORRY!

Stop saying that the old Linda is gone. I did not change. If you think I change, is all because of you. The one who suffering is me not YOU! I suffered more than you did. So there's nothing wrong for me to hate you. Only true friends can see the real me wheather I change or not. You don't have rights to judge me.

I kind of happy and relieve that everything is damn OVER. He has admitted what he had done. Phew! I really hope that,there's no nonsense from you ever again. You and me,we are done and over it! It's history! You don't have to bring the past back to my tagbox. I forgot how our stories looks like caused it's just vanished. I'm tired of handling the same old topics with the same person. Plus,you annoyed me ALOT!

I don't think I can forgive you now. You will tend to repeat it again. Don't worry,this is my last entry regarding YOU. Don't feel insulted cause what you've called me so far is worst than insulting.

My blog will be the same again. There's no need for me to change the URL or private the blog. This blog is open to everyone who are willing to read. Anyone can tag provided you use your REAL name. Including YOU.

Sabby said to me, Never let your guts down!

2009-05-20T13:34:00.005+08:00

20 May 09, 12:58
w: hmm nt forgiving as linda??linda is also nt forgiving dats y i hate her [Sabby's tagbox]

So,this W or whatever his or her name is,saying that I'm not forgiving and tts why he/she hated me. The first thing that is appearing in my mind is,do you know me that well? Why you hated me so much? Did you ever hurt me? If yes,what wrong did you do? Look,I'm a forgiving person with condition that you admit who you are and explain why accusing me of something that I did not do? I had enough with your little game here. You use 2 innoncence names and tagged something bad so that I can blame these two people for creating stories about me. From the tagger who named his or her 'unlucky' to 'farhan' to 'wani',I knew this tagged is from one person who I hated so much. You know the reasons why I hated you so much.

Let me share you some stories of myself. If I guessed you wrongly. I was a forgiving person before. Trust me,how much you hurt me so much,I still can forgive you. But after I got 'hit' by someone who I loved before,I'm a different person. My heart still hurt and how am I supposed to forgive him after what he had done to me? After what he have promised me,begging me to give him one last chance. He choose someone over me and expect me to forgive him? My mistakes for believing what he said. But after I heard some friend's advise,I finally moved on. Leaving alone 2 love birds enjoying thier 'new' life while I'm enjoying my new life with the friends. Is that wrong? I did not disturb his life till now.

Look,fake wani,fake farhan. If you are not what I think you are,I will never forgive you. Like I said,I'm a different person now. You come to my blog and tagged me with harsh words,accusing me like as if I did not have my dignity. I did not blog to sell my body or to fuck with some guys. I blog because I want to share my feelings to some readers. If you are not happy with my blog or with me,you can jolly well press the red button on your top right-hand corner. Your game is about to over. The real people have come out from their shell and admit that they are not the one. Whoever you are,I would like you reveal your identity. IP address will never fool people.

If you hate me because I am not a forgiving person,so be it. I can't stop you for hating me and you can't stop me for hating you. Aku tak menyusahkan hidup kau. Tak payah kau nak sakit hati dngn aku. Don't worry,I promised my self not to read the real Wani's blog. No point for you to put the URL on my tag box. Wani and I,we are not related or what. We did not know each other that well.

And last but not that least,I just pitied Wani. Maybe,the guy who she loved whole heartedly is framing her. Maybe.

You make yourself like a real fool by fooling others.

2009-05-18T13:55:00.006+08:00

As far as I know,I don't have any enemies. Why would people want to be my enemy? Especially those who did not know me or even they know me,why would they want to be one? So what if they hated me so much? I really can't stop them from hating me. Right?

This drama did not stop here. Hence this post is specially for you,idiot. =D If you dare,come and see me face-to-face. I mean face-to-face so that you can talk all you want rather than hiding yourself behind the computer screen. Don't act tough infront the computer. I repeat DON'T! You are being an idiot here,don't you think so??

Just want to know,where were you on the 14th May? What happened with the "Wanna fight?See you on the 14th May?" Have you forgotten or you might followed your boyfriend footsteps? Being a COWARD? Please lah,idiot,don't think that you are perfect. Calling me bitch,I can tolerate. But once you called me a slut and asking me how many guys have I ever fucked for the past 2 months do you think I can tolerate? You don't fucking know me and creating stories that is untrue and trying to embarass me publicly is just a pity. Are you stupid or stupid? Look yourself through the mirror first cause only a slut will know what is slut!

From Sabby's tagbox,you typed:
18 May 09, 13:08
wani: wadever..u guyz r da one who was afraid to show ur lils ugly face in front of me

Look who's talking. You are referring to you. You are the one who afraid to show your fucking face on that day. If our face is ugly,how bout your face? Your face is worst than a monkey's face. Don't you realised that,honey??

18 May 09, 13:09
wani: especially dat linda gal.da ugliest gal i've ever seen

Are you jealous of me being so ugly? Or are you jealous of me being so pretty? I smelled jealousy. Look,idiot, I realised and know how ugly I am. It's Allah who create this face of mine. I'm happy and thankful that I've my face. Not that preety but just nice for me. You don't have to critic what was given by HIM. I'm preety in my own way. You preety in your own way. Don't be too proud of what you have now. I believe in Allah. He can turn perfect things upside down in any time.

Dearest Wani,what's all the commotions about? Who broke your heart,wani? Did my friends ever disturbed you? Did I disturbed you before this? You have Iskandar now. Just be happy with him. Don't worry,I've already moved on and my thoughts and feelings for him has gone. Completely gone and I'm happy being a single girl now. I'm used to it already. You and him suits better not me. Seriously,being with him is my biggest mistakes of my life. Don't tell me that you are insecure of him????? Just be careful of him and take care of him. If can do 'rantai' him even closer to you. =)

Yes,I've deleted the harsh tag made by Wani. If she dare to tag,my blog is open for her. Come and tag. You think I'm scared of a little girl like you? What's your age again?? You can jolly well,play hide-and-seek with your boyfriend instead. Since you are so afraid of looking for me face-to-face on Graduation Day! Or just play some hindustan song and run-circle-circle around coconut tree with him. I don't care.

Till here. I'm done blogging about an Idiot! Pss. I don't use your parent's money or what to make me happy! =) Thank you Sabby for the post at your blog. She's soo stupid and kuku caused follow what you said. LOL

Beautiful in my own ways.

....I get my pillar of strength and thanks to my mom. You are my strength to say what I need to say. Thank you Ak. Thank you Sabby....

2009-05-15T15:49:00.014+08:00

Bye bye Dover! I've graduated already yesterday like finally. Thanks for the people who came to this one and only ceremony. I'm not sure why there's so little people coming to receive their certificate. Maybe they just can't be bothered at all! But anw,I'm all yellow yesterday and everyone was looking so gorgeous and cute and handsome and smart and many more. Haha. This is the only chance to see them looking so smart. =) I'm happy and proud at the same time.

We are the first one to come and to register and yes the guys are the most kecoh can? =)

The ceremony started quite late cause we need to wait for the VIP and the rest to find their seats. While the guys do some catching ups,we the girls were busy looking at other people. Looking and Sabby and I spotted guys bringing their helmet around the auditorium. We did some rolling eyes insert whisper at each other. Teehee.

They are the one. Friends. The clique who went to class,canteen,play UNO and some stupid games and chilling out together. Everything we did,we did together. One sad,everyone sad. Hopefully,this is not the end of our frendship. I'll give you my hug and kisses to you people. And Thank you. ;)

Will always be remembered on how I met you girls on the 1st day of ITE life. I'll remembered that.

So once everything was over,we hanged out at Starbucks at Citilink. We,the girls need to just sit and rest our aching feet. The heels is not our bestfriend. Seriously. Let's the picture do the story for the chillingout session. =)

The good memories will always kept inside my memory box while the bad memories,I've already graved it down below so that it won't come out and disturbed me anymore. I remembered yesterday,one of my friends say to me that now,I'm happy-go-lucky already! I fully agree with what the friend told me. =) Just look at my cheek,below.

Done! =D

...becoming a strong person each day. Cause,I have my friends! <3...

2009-05-13T15:38:00.004+08:00

People who break promises shouldn't give face or give respect. To think that you are old enough to do whatever you like. One day you promise the next thing you just break like that. Who do you think you are? I know,we need to respect you cause you are old. Being old doesn't mean you can ditched us like that? Being old doesn't mean you know everything. Being old doesn't mean you can disrespect other people especially the yonger one. OMG! Why is there's such people like them? Haiz.

Tomorrow is the day where I can actually see everyone. I miss my friends already. And being the good girl,I msged Sabby and Ak saying that I miss them early in the morning. =) Everything is overly prepare and I'm ready to receive my Certificate. From strangers to friends. The school is our strong withnesse who have seen us how close we are and how 'naughty' we are. Well actually,we are good girls and boys. I hope tomorrow's event will go on smoothly.

Please anyone,if you have any information regarding budak giler (you people should know who I'm talking about lah),please don't tell me with who he's walking with and what he do cause I'm no longer interested in knowing what he do,does or did anymore. Thank you! :D

...I want to groove and sing a song like one happy toddler...

2009-05-10T14:20:00.005+08:00

I'm stuck at home with my beloved adik while the other's went to JB to shop. The brother went to work as usual. And now,I'm youtubing and listening to songs for my blog.

I really want to find my childhood friends of mine. Since I moved in late December 1996,I've actually lost contact all my childhood friends. Well actually they are not my childhood friends but more likely to be my schoolmates. Nursery and primary school mates. =) I remember having a crush with my partner who was so snobbish and trying to be cool in such a young age. I was in primary 1 and it's so funny on how each time he scolded me for not writing a proper date in Malay class. Well,he's a leader in our group,we need to listen to what he said. Snobbish little brat! LOL. Missed those days with no problems at all.

I really don't know what to update now. My mind is blank and I'm hungry. Gonna cook some food and I'm in-love with Barley! =)

...go out and fly kites...

2009-05-07T20:57:00.003+08:00

How am I? Ouh I'm doing great and feeling much better now. Thank God.
Shopping with the favourite girls on Tuesday and accompany Sabby to settle some stuffs yesterday. Last minute meetup with Miss Julia aka J. We talked and like finally,I really confessed one of my secrets to her. At first,I decided not to tell her but as a friend,I should tell her somehow. Although everything is over and I've already move on. *Peace*

Graduation is just next week. Excited not because of the event but is because of so-called reunion of the classmates. I miss those faces that will make me happy and angry at times. You know who they are. Sometimes they making me really laugh-my-ass-out. I never regret having them as my classmates. I miss the school compound. The canteen. The foyer. The small lift which can contain like 10-12 people? And the classrooms especially. Aww. I never thought that my 2 years of ITE went so fast.

Like sabby,I've deleted my Myspace account as well as my Friendster account. Myspace is those who are really into music and gigs,well that's not Linda. As for Friendster account,nothing much for me to do but to make my account dusty with cob webs all over the profile. It laggs and I wanna flush away all the memories that I have inside the Friendster account. Yes. I've deleted my 2 accounts for good! =)

Mothers' Day. What can i do for my beloved Mother? Hmm. Happy Advanced Mothers' Day to you,Mother. =D

...Alone,till I'm 23. Insyaallah...

2009-05-04T13:15:00.015+08:00

Sorry for the late update. So,last Friday,spent my Labour Day with the goodfriends at Marina Barrage. It's my 1st trip there and we had so much fun there. Everything that we did on that day was our 1st time. Don't get what I mean? We jump jump and jump like one happy kid! Hehe. Arm was the 1st 'kid' to jump followed by US! I'm happy so do my friends!

We tried to take jumpshot using self-timer but,we failed to do so.

I loved jump and jump and jump especially when friends are around us! Fantastic and not plastic. Hahaha.

Jumping around is tiring especially when you are starving and thirsty. So,we headed to Bugis and have our late lunch/early dinner at ZAMZAM. Murtabak satu please! ;) We can't stop talking until the Murtabak was served. Everyone was like, *krik krik krik*. Later,we stopped by this shop along Bali Lane. And let me tell you something,those dresses are nice and cheapp. *kening up and down*

Starbucks was our last place to just chill and enjoyed the hot chocolate. Starbucks will be our favourite place to hang out. But I will never forget MacCafe. =) So,reached home at 1020pm. The End.

Get well soon,Linda. Take care my friends. =)

...the reasons we become close is that,we talked and listened when each of us having our own problems...

2009-04-30T16:38:00.006+08:00

I miss wearing my red and black hoodie jacket to school. :(

As well as my green jacket. :(

Anw,this adek of mine keep pestering me to sign up twitter. I know this is like everywhere. But if you guys don't find me updating the blog,meaning I'm with the twitter. =)

P/s: I think I'm in love with printed dress. =) Flower power.

...I don't want any love. Rimass!But,I still in lup with Mr Ashraff Muslim tho. =)...

2009-04-28T15:30:00.009+08:00

Meet the old 'Wild Wild Wet'....

Look at us! We have grown up already. 2 years getting to know them is so fast that we didn't even noticed. From dating to hooked up and to breakup,we still the same. Nothing change us. I miss the 1st year 1st day of school where we get to know each other. Hence,I would like to say,Happy belated 2 years anniversary to my LOVE. This annivesary is specially dedicated to both you. Cheerious.

So,yesterday,did I tell you that I'm gonna meet this person to find work? Yes,that person is Dyla. Accomapany her to find work around town area. Spent time at Starbucks without any drinks and cakes was great,although Dyla had to go off earlier.

Anw,I'm so can't wait for my wish to come true this good-Ol-Friday! Insyaallah.

...is because I gave you too many chances which ended up making me suffocate...

2009-04-27T12:48:00.003+08:00

30 Seconds To Mars will always be loved by Nur Haslinda. =)
It's Monday today and I get a morning called followed by the msg of the same person asking me whether I can go out today. Like I said,my usual answer will be,"I anything." So later will be heading to this place to accompany this person to find work. I'll always be the one who come late. Hehe. =)

Ouh,I'm so happy cause nomore nonsense coming from nonsensetical people.(got such word? hmm) Happy teramat happy sekali! And most importantly,I'm being loved by someone who really loved me!! Thank you so much for your love and care. <3

Ouh,it's 1.03pm already,really got to go now cause I don't want to be late. Pity that person who will be waiting for me that long. Will update when I'm totally free and not lazy. ;)

Btw,I listen to this song caused I miss my rebellious year.

...I am not your friend and I am not your enemy. So,who are you to me? NOTHING!...

2009-04-23T17:51:00.004+08:00

I just love this photo. Credits to Sabrina for the shots. Sorry if,I steal this photo from your bloggie. =)

American Idols,I bet it's Lil Round and Annoop will be out today. Yeah! Go,Adam Lambert! ;)

I miss my friends,lets meet up preety soon,babe cause,I'm craving for New York Cheesecake. Heh.

Anw,I'm in love with Mr Ashraf Muslim. <3

...You can talk all you want but skin is really thick...

2009-04-21T16:09:00.005+08:00

People can say what they can say now.
I just pray to HIM that,I can get the truth.
I'm smiling from ear to ear now.
Thanks to her for everything. You know who you are. :)
To you people,thanks alot. You know who you are too. :)
I just regret that there's still coward people around.
Whatever it is,I don't want you to get involve with my life anymore.
If you happened to read this post,I'm not going to forgive you,I'm going to hate you more.
Don't be too smart.
=)

Dyla,Julia,Raidah,Hafizz,Khai,Mus etc-where you guys? The four of us miss you all badly! See you people on the 14 May ok.

..1st is F,now is W and what's next?..

2009-04-19T14:36:00.007+08:00

While that 'WANI' creating trouble at my tag like nothing better to do aka madgirl in the house,I spent my time with my goodfriends of mine. Where? Picnic at Botanic Garden! So wassup with my tagbox? Go and look it yourself! =)

It's just a simple picnic with a simple foods. Thanks AK for the drinks. Thanks Sabby for the marshmallow and thanks Arm for??? And I brought 'homemade' cookies from home. Just a simple picnic for catching up.

Next,headed to Wisma and chilled at Starbucks. We shared our opinions,problems and alot of things together that day/night. Well,everyone has their own problems and responsiblity. It's normal stuff yeah.

I'm happy with my life now. Eventhough someone wants to see me down or sad. She/he,is so jealous of me cause,I'm happy and I got my own life. Talking like that,won't affect me. She/he will talk and talk like one mad person who cannot see me happy with my life. It really tickles me when I see mad person type tis; Wani: Wanna fight..see you on 14 May. This person is so childish and wanna ask you,how old are you,WANI? Haha. Like my mom always said,"Gasak kau lah,nak. Buat ape yng patut"

Reply to tag:

Hanafee: NO NO. She is not my friend. Infact,she is not that cool to be my friend. =) I don't friend this type of attitude girl and CHILDISH.

Wani: Yawnnn,you bore me A LOT!! Can't be bother with you,sick head!

Dyla: Thanks Dyla. Tu pun klw dier berani enough to face me. Bunyi mcm pengecut je. Mcm same bloody person.

Shira: Thank you. Haha. ULU KANGKANG? LOL. Funny sia. Mane tau amsih pakai,kain batik or seluar pendek?Ikat siput with sanggul pastu nak fight pakai,tarik2 rambut. LOL. And yeah. Semakin dilayan semakin sakit hati dier tu. PHD lah otak dier. ;) Sayang awak!

...I don't care what you thinking...

2009-04-16T17:39:00.002+08:00

I don't know how this 'WANI' or whatever her/his name is come to my blog,I'm not too sure. Love creating trouble and think that I'm gonna cry for that? Noway. If you don't adore my beautiful face here,please get out of this blog and don't come again. You a such a an awful girl/guy who have no shame put your name at my tag and tag just to make me feel down? Eh,member,salah orang lah,belo! I don't know where you put your face at. Maybe behind your fridge at your home? Yeah,I guess so. Only,rude people will do this kind of stuff. Got nothing better things to do,I guess. Busuk hati! If you think you are goddamn clever and you think you get into poly,go ahead lah. Go on. Why,bother about my life? Klw nak cari gaduh,not at my blog sister/brother,come straight to my face and say what you want to say.Coward? Coward like some people! Look,when,aku tak cari masalah kat orang,you better stay out of my life. You don't know about me and I don't know bout you too,so better shoo before everything become worst. So what,if I can't get into poly,I'm not dying yet! I'm not troubling you. I'm not your friend. I'm not your relative and I'm not using your money to school me. I'm lousy,well,so what? Don't tell me you are jealous of me? Ask your parents to teach you some manners first before coming here and shoot me. Calling people bitch is not good. Look yourself in the mirror first ok. One advise,brush your teeth and clean yourself,you are so FILTHY with dirt all around you! YIKES. =)

Thanks friend,cousin,and adek for the tag. She/he can't do anything. Kill me,I dare you!

...MY BLOG. MY SAY. YOU LIKE IT OR NOT,IT'S MY BLOG. JUST BERAMBUS IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY POST,CAN?...

2009-04-15T16:03:00.000+08:00

"To think that I will forgive you just like that,maybe in your bloody dream!"

I wonder,not many people are so lucky and fortunate. Some,who are lucky enough to enter to their dream school because of their hardwork. While some,get thier own dream school because of the word luck or fortunate enough even their merit not as good as the people who have worked hard. But,how about the people who gained good merit but didn't get anything? How they count and how they actually look at the merit,I myself,not so sure. But,to solve this,they have to take another alternatives way. That is into the private school. Yes,they can,I can,we can enroll in,but the question is,how much?

Yes. How much? Can they cope with a year of studies,just to get the diploma cert? What if they can't cope and failed,how bout the money that they have already paid? Just wasted down the drain. Maybe we shouldn't think negatively,but this is the consequences that we should think. And now,the question is,can I?

Just see how. People say,study with your heart and mind open. But mine,I opened my mind but not my heart. How. Ouh,in dilemma..

...a kid can fully understand what I am talking about,but people like you,will never understand what I've just/already said. Get this in your head,cause you irritate me more and more now!..

2009-04-13T16:57:00.002+08:00

"..wishing and dreaming doesn't mean concentrating on what you don't have,it's positive thinking that encourages hoping and believing,not whinging and moaning.."-Cecelia Ahern;If You Could See Me Now-

2009-04-12T15:43:00.003+08:00

I should have sing a song today at Karaoke room. Hisy!
I can't think and my brain is block. Argh!
I don't know what I feel too.
Haiz.
Bye.

...I just don't understand why?...

2009-04-09T16:59:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was just me,Sabby and AK hanging out at MacD and I had my double choc. =) People are getting busier but me,I'm not a worker nor a student. But soon to be a student in 2 months time. Insyaallah. Maybe I'm going to switch course soon. There's a BUT... I just scared that I can't cope with my new course. Well,we just see how.

Thanks to elder sister for the donuts and I do take a picture of the donuts cause I'm bored. Laugh Out Loud!

Also,I do take some pictures of the flower outside my house and the scenery from my house. I just took it for fun not for any other purpose. Haha.

It's so greennn.. =)
And I can see guys playing soccer every weekends and I seldom watch them play lah cause they are not good enough. Hehe. Opps.
Home,is the safest place on earth!
And I wanna go to holiday,alone!
Anyone?

....when the sun goes off and everything is so dark,I just hope that the moon can bring me the light to accompany me during the night...

2009-04-07T17:08:00.003+08:00

I got a one secret. My friend and I have the same thought. We can actually read each other's mind and that friend of mine is Sabby! Yeah! Ouh well,I don't know what to blog.

Ouh anw,I would like to watch this movie which will be in the cinema soon. Not because of Zac Efron ok. I hate him. YIKEZ. =)

These days,I spent my time either at home or hanging out with the friends. Being single meaning being happy go lucky. I can jump,I can go out and went back home any time I want. No one will msg or scold me like before. Free and I love the way I am,free from heart pain! Wheelie wheelie pom pom!

I saw this guy in the train yesterday wearing shades and I love his appearence,it's kind of cool. :)

Apart from that,I won't give up,no matter how many times I fall down. Keep trying cause this is the only way for me to be successful? Yeah.To those people who are in the same boat as me,don't worry cause like Sabby's said,He has better plan for us. So keep on trying and smile all the way!!! =)

...and I want to be that LAST girl...

2009-04-05T17:05:00.003+08:00

I regard this as a challenge for me.
There's always an alternative way to solve this.
Stop asking me. It hurts me so much.
I will try and comfort myself.
Try. Let's see,if I can handle this all by myself.
What more can I say,if the chances that we have is so little.
What more can I say,that I've tried my very best and I'm proud to have what I'm having now?
Embarrassed? Why should I embarassed. I don't care what people might say to me cause this is what I got. This is what I achieve so far.
Competition is everywhere. We can just compete and compete but they look for the better ones.
Giving them chance and see what they can do and learnt.
As for us,this is just a beginning.
I'm not going to stop here and I'm gonna grab that opportunity that I have now infront of me.
People can say,I'm a loser but they just see the front view of me,but they aren't able to see the inside view of me. They can talk,they can say,they can speak,but in the end,no one lose and no one win. Equal.
It's just tired. Tired of hearing and tired of talking. It's equal.
I would like to hear a good news from them.
I'll pray that.
Amin.

...It's just the waterfall from my eyes that accompany me when I'm alone. No one but the waterfalls...

2009-04-02T15:51:00.010+08:00

Hello April! It's 2nd day of April and I spent my 1st April with my favourite ladies yeterday. So,Dyla,Sabby and I went back to Dover to receive the award (in cheque) which they asked us to come within 1st April till 9th April on the letter. Once done,we headed to VivoCity to catch the Confession Of A Shopaholic! After finished discussing we agreed to take at 7pm show and while waiting for the time,we had our late lunch with Dyla! Dyla,aku rindu kauuu..

This picture before Dyla goes off. Thought of going to the Kepple Bay Bridge,but it's quite faraway and decided to U-turn to Vivo instead. We bought half-a-dozen donuts and I brought my homemade brownies and as you can see,they are all so chcolatey and the ladies and I loved um!

We killed the time by listening to Julia's stories,eating the donuts and brownies. By 630pm off to buy drinks (we can't decide whether we shld buy the drinks or not,girlsss.) and waited again till 7pm till the seats are open.

Confession of A Shopaholic was a 2 thumbs up movie! I love Isla Fisher and I certainly love Rebecca Bloomwood! She's like Mrs Bean in the movie and her characters makes us laughed non-stop with my tears of joy! It's worth watching I tell you. =) Shopping with me,anyone?? Heehee.

Luckily,mom did not nag at me yesterday cause I reached home at 1015pm. Hehe. Sayang mak and bapak.. :) And of course,sayang kawan-kwan aku. I love my holidays so much cause,it is really well spent. *winks winks*

Tommorow will be the day. Wish me luck and goodluck friends... *heart thumping*

...The girl in a green scarf-COAS-...

2009-03-31T15:19:00.002+08:00

I'm mad and pissed off at someone who trying to make my life so difficult. Trying to get my attention and be sympathetic and especially,trying to fool me. I may not as clever as other people but I got a good memory in recognising people's handwriting,talk and the spelling that they always used! I'm not boasting around but I realized that this is the so-called gift that GOD gave me.

We'll just see. =)

...You deal with the wrong person...

2009-03-29T14:35:00.008+08:00

Aloha! Last Friday which is 2 days back,the friends and I went for a cycling at ECP and trust me it's my 1st time cycling with the friends. Well,it's the same old people who have agreed to join us. Teehee. We planned this since Monday and I'm so happy that the planned went on so smoothly. Love the weather as it is so bright and we can see how beautiful the blue skies are.

Sabby was super hyper after she ate the corn and so eager to cycle too so the rest of us. Reached there and straightaway rent the bicycles and I choose this bicycle which my leg can't reach the ground. Pss,I put a basket on my bicycle as well. Hehe. It's been a long time since I cycled. The last time I cycled is last year May during the Night Cycling activities with the OAC members. We cycled all the way till the end of the East coast and halfway thru the long road where we can actually see the Changi Airport. =) So tiring and yet so fun to cycle with them.

We stopped at one of the pitt-stopped and have our break for a while. Thanks to Ak for the Chocolate Tart and getting bullied by us. Can't helped it. Hehe. =)

The sun is about to sunset and we slowly cycled back to the ECP and by the time we reached there we were damn tired and my legs,butt and my hands are still aching. Freshen up ourselves and off to Parkway Parade to have our dinner at Banquet. It's my 1st trip to Parkway Parade and the shopping centre is cool than Lot 1. Hehe.

Tired and hungry looking faces. Once done eating,took the bus to Paya Lebar MRT Station and have a long trip back to Jurung East with the music on.

Should do this more often :)

And yesterday,accompany my mom to Geylang. I was whining to my mom about this and that. Hehe. I bought myself 2 tops! Yip yippie.

xxxxxx
Regards to yesterday msg,I don't care what is your status or what happened to you. I just can't be bothered and why should you report everything you did? There's nothing for you to msg something like that to me. Ouh btw,it's not Karma that hits you back,you just love to toy people's heart and feelings. And I find it really stupid! Like I said,she will be your victim. And it's true. I like it! Hah.And again,stay out from my life,heartbreaker!!
xxxxx

...and MY LIFE WOULD BE GREAT WITHOUT YOU!...

2009-03-25T15:23:00.002+08:00

BOMB! =)
Sorry for the lack of updates. I know,I know,I havent update this precious blog of mine since Saturday.
Don't worry,I'm alive and still around and still in Singapore. It's just that,my fingers is damn lazy to type things out from my brain. How bad can my fingers are!
Ouh well,since my fingers are not lazy today,shall start to blog now. Happy? =D

Trust. Before this,I'll never trust anyone else except for myself and sometimes family. Yes. Sometimes the siblings break my trust towards them. Ouh well,there's so many things happened over the years. Shall not type it here. Secret. Anw,it's hard to trust people this days. They can twist the words put some sweetener and make the word as if a true for us to believe it. Damn. The only people(outsiders) who I can trust is them. The closest friends. I can talked,gossipped and say what is inside my mine to them. So much so,I felt comfortable talking to them caused I trusted them. I trusted a guy before and making me go ouh ouh for a while,my eyes were blinded by his words and I can't see his fcuking true colours. Hah. My bad and I should be more careful the next time a guy wants to talk to me. Gosh.

Look at this people without life,trying to be funny when actually they are not. Think he is so mysterious being a nameless person.
I don't find it suspense but I find it irritating and annoying. And that's not cool.
Thank god,finally he is really vanished. Go on,go away. =D

Hmm,I guess I'm back being myself. Yippie! Staying at home and hanging out with my friends make my day! Plus,get more and more chocolates and ice-cream. =) Thanks to my mom for pampered me with the junkies. Ouh,I'm craving for DONUTS!!! Yup,the donuts with chocolates topping and different kind of toppings. Yeap,that's the one,I'm talking about. I'm gonna grow fat with lots of calories.

I really can't wait for the Friday to come come.
I miss them already.
I even dreamt about them last night.
Anyone miss me?? Hehe.

...I may rude to people if they don't get what I've told them...

2009-03-21T20:50:00.013+08:00

Late lunch over at Popeye. Sabby and I travelled from Jurung East to Changi Airport just for the Popeye. =) It's my first time eating at the Popeye Chicken and Biscuit! It's damn nice lah. But the price is a bit ahem. Hehe. While Sabby and I were waiting for the sit to be empty,we bumped into AK and boyfriend and 2 friends from BB SC. So,we asked them to join us for the lunch and waited for Julia and Raidah. Should bring my mom and dad along lah one day. If they want.

Later,walked around the airport and there's nothing much for us to see. Boring yeah. Took some pictures and decided to leave the place and headed down to our secret place with a Big Gulp of Ice-lemon tea and Kinder Bueno for each! Hehe.

We sat and played UNO and stopped for awhile for picture time and we advertise our headphone and talked till the night came by. =) Jeez,I had a great time with them! Any plan for next outing please? Hehe.

I love Kinder Bueno! =)

It happened to be a Mosaic Festival week and we get to watch this band and they played this song Falling by Intone. They played really well and I love that girl with guitar. Really cool with nice voice! Keep it up,yaw!

I don't find police on guard inside the train really that cool instead find them really annoying lah. They standing there and maintain fierce. Eeeee.. =) Hehe.

I love my friends and I miss them already. Next outing purleaseeee with the boy(s) now since someone have finished his attachment already hor. ;)

...I'm lucky to have them as my friends. I'm happy being myself and love hanging out with them,can?? =)....

2009-03-16T20:49:00.002+08:00

It's a pay-cheque day for me! =) Headed down to Creative and received the cheque from Vemala and 2 friends of mine went to the bank straightaway after that. My dream came true again! It's raining and we were walking down the empty street with empty stomach. Alhamdulilah,the pay is really making me happy. Apalagi,shopping time! And yesahh,I bought myself a headphone today. =)

Just few minutes ago,I chatted with this friend of mine,Mirza about our life. Also,he asked me to watch Quarantine,a movie about Zombies. We imagined what if there's Zombies in Singapore and we ended up planning about how to get rid of these zombies. Haha. Mcm fun gituk. ;) Well,my plan is,get to the nearest shieng shong and stole all the foods and next thing is to go to any army camps and stole the guns as well as the riffles. Bring everything to home and wait till the Zombies to come and attack. Haha. What a wild imagination of mine. =) Zombies will not let me sleep. Eee,gross and scary.

I don't know if this is true or not,but this friend of mine (not really my frend lah,get to know him,last 2 weeks?)said he can read girl's mind. I find it really funny. Only girls mind and not guys? Haha. Attention seeker or what? He should get some life lah,seriously. Heh.

Gotta have my late-dinner now. Time checked,10.37pm. I missed the friends of mine.

....Always look on the bright side of life...

2009-03-14T15:48:00.016+08:00

I.T show was a blast yesterday! It was so packed with I.T stuffs and accessorise. The placed was packed with different type of people. Old and young. Cute stuffs with low prices and also ahem,cute saleman on every booth. =) Bought ourselves one portable harddisk at such a good price. Sooo tempting to buy everything that was displayed there but we are not working anymore. Amrul,put on your charming smile!!! ;)

Headed to Marina Square to fill in some food to our empty tummy and next pit stop will be the place where I wanted to go...Singapore Flyer.....just outside the big wheel only. =) Took pictures,that's what we always do. And I shake2 while walking. Hehe. I know you know sabby. ;)

Yup. It's only Linda and Sabby in the house. We sat at this spot till the sun is setting down and my dream came true yesterday. Sitting infront of the flyers is so amazing! =)

Had our 8 pieces of Brownies and headed home with a smile on our faces. We get the less crowded train and get our sits and talked plus gossipped about the ppl infront of us. Haha. Girls and gossip cannot be separated. ;)

Life is like this giant wheel with ups and down. We cannot escape from it. Trust me. Don't be too happy cause this won't last forever. =)

...and I love the specs that Taufik wores yesterday,cute.

2009-03-11T15:11:00.007+08:00

A mini-celebration for the IT2N people on Monday. By looking at their faces,there's a sign of relieve and happiness. Everything is over and goodbye Dover. We will see you in May for graduation day. =)

Swensens over at Marina Square for 'Giant Earthquake'. The funny part is,it was raining on that Monday and we ate ice-cream in a such a cold whather. But,we had fun while eating the ice-cream. But,we cannot share the ice-cream together. LOL.

It's so random on how we recalled back the 1st time we met each other. I met 3 new friends since Apr 14 2008. Going a year soon and hopefully we can keep in touch no matter what happen to us. Studying,working,NS-ing and etc. 'Rajin-rajinlah msg ye' =)
Same goes to the IT1A peeps yeah. I'm gonna miss you people the most,cause I found my good-friends. Losing good-friends is sad thing ever. I can lose bf in just a seconds,but I really can't lose friends who make me happy. I put friends in my 2nd list a part from my family. As for the bf,maybe it's the last thing I can think of lah for now.

Left school with pride and attitude.

2009-03-07T16:45:00.011+08:00

Everything has come to an end and yesterday was a black day for us. This is to show that we are bored working there and it's a way to say,BYE BYE. =) Black is a new colour for me as well. Well,please don't notice about my tudung cause if I were to wear black,I look like a witch plus,the sun is scorching hot. Fuh! Anw,the staff were looking at us very differently yesterday cause we wore the same colour;Black.

We slacked and Hafizz and I finished up the last emails at 10 plus before going down for a break. I'm so bored and every minute,I'll took some pictures of myself cause there's nothing for me to do except staring blankly at the PC.

After our lunch the 3 girls went to our usual spot and took some pictures. The last time that we gonna step onto that spot again.

Waiting for our logbook to be given back to us and as for the grades that we get,I will say nothing about it. As long as nomore working on Saturday that will be absolutely great. =) As you can see the road above,this is where me and my 2 other friends decided to shout as loudly as possible cause everything is over. He shouted,"Aku da graduate!!",she shouted,"Bodohnyer Creative!!" and I shouted,"Attachment da habis!!" Well,I don't know what to say cause my mind is blank. Yup,blank as I'm soo happy that everything is over! People infront were looking at us weirdly. I just don't care what they think of us. We are not ready to be in their working shoes yet.

But for sure,I'm gonna miss Sham the most. Although we (hafizz and I) seldom talked to him,but he somehow will make us laughed. How he sighed while doing his work and how he talked to his collegues. Sacarstic. But,hafizz and I loved his "mcm siak" word. Haha. Goodluck to you,Sham. =)

Ouh yeah,after our work,meet Sabby at our usual place and talked all the way till 945pm and we didn't even realised it. We talked about our work experienced. A normal things that girls always do when meetup.

What's my plan after this? Of course resting and sleeping. Slack at home and waited for my school result to be out and for my real ITE graduation day. =) Just can't wait to receive my HigherNitec Ceritficate and also the award. I just don't know when can I get the award.

There is the new begining for every ending. I'm not sure where to start. There's something missing in between. Think,I should cover up the space that is missing. Make it like a one whole. Make it a brand new but I don't know where to start.

...guys come and go as they wish. But do they go with a new purpose? Or still stuck with the old crimes in hand?...

2009-03-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

Countdown. Before I can smell happiness and freedom. This is what I called,the Power of Freedom. Free from work and stress and 'melayankan' bunch of irritating customers. Free from the crowded train where I always stand almost everyday. Free from waking so early in the morning and drag my foot to work. Freeeeeeee from everything even from relationship. Hooray. I can smell that Linda is back. *If you smell...* Haha. Nah,I don't watch wrestling like some people. Boring.

Anw,my life is gonna be great soon. Because,I've planned a lot of things during the holidays. Since got money money money,I planned to shop till drop...not. Shopping,I just can't wait to shop. Shop for Crumpler? Not only shopping,but maybe release stress with the friends. Ouh,I just can't wait for the time I step out from the office and shout YATAAA,I LOVE NOONE! ;)

Ouh yeah,the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus is coming to town. =) You Better Pray!

..and finally,I'm phobia with the word,L.O.V.E....

2009-03-01T17:20:00.007+08:00

5 more days to end this attachment. Excited and work is so much relax now when there is not TLs to watch us from behind since Friday and Saturday. So,relax time and Hafizz and I finished up our emails till 10 am plus and what we do? For Hafizz,with his PSP and me lay back and staring at the ceiling. I felt like a boss doing nothing. Heaven for the both of us. =) Let's finish up what we must do till Friday baby! Hang on there!

Watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons and out of 10 stars,I shall give it all 10 stars for the great movie. I was so touched by the character act by Brad Pitt of how he 'grew',how he fall in love with his dream girl and how he sacrifice. It really touches me and I almost cried when Daisy carried him and died in her arms. His love for her will never end but sadly,he just can't remember being Benjamin. I wanna watched it again. Anyone? =)

Remember those? Actually there's alot pics from my album,I'll show you people next time. This people from IT1A,will always be remembered. =)

...you have moved on,now it's my turn to move on w/o you....Go away,from my life.

2009-02-26T21:29:00.004+08:00

When you are always gloomy,the whether will also get gloomy together with you. But once HE showed this beautiful creation up above the sky,somehow,I felt so delight. Look at the sky above,it's dark but in the middle of the darkness sky,there was a rainbow. One big Rainbow appeared before me,infront of me with the cold breeze. I was happy and everything that happened to me vanish away as I mesmerized the RAINBOW. Thank you,GOD. =)

So yesterday,I went to the clinic with the mom for my check-up. He checked my blood pressure,looked at my hands,check my pulse,look at my eyes and lastly,press my stomach. I was like,what the heck man? Am I ok or not. The checking was like so serious to me. But,Alhamdulilah,he said that,I'm ok and normal. It's just that I'm suffering for dizziness and maybe because I think too much. Stress at work or maybe stress about what happened currently. The doc just gave me 1 medicine and I should be ok by then. He also said,if still dizzy,I will need to get back to him. Chet. I will. I will get better.

Mom been very good to me cause she will serve me my favourite fruit,remind me to eat medicine and always worried for me. Adik,as usual,giving me Vitamin C and talks a lot about medicine. Pening. Thanks anw to both of you. =)

7 more days! Let's end this thing and have our gathering on 9th of March! There's so much to do during our holiday period. Mostly with the friends. They can make me alive and I'm slowly recovering from the 'sickness'. If you know what I mean. Getting msges from friends really making me happy. =) I'm gonna get my old Linda back. Ouh,those who don't know me that well,jolly well call me Haslinda. Linda are meant to be for my friends who really know me A LOT! Heh.

Ouh well,I really got to stop here cause tomorrow will be another day of working life. I'm really get use already. So,gtg and have my dinner and eat my medicine and sleep. Psst,this medicine making me sleepy.. Yawns. Selamat Malam! [Goodnight]

Be strong cause you are not desperate....

2009-02-24T21:02:00.003+08:00

Why should I forgive him?
I hate him till I die.
I won't look back and gather all the memories. I've thrown away everything. I mean EVERYTHING! Don't mentioned about appreciation caused I appreciated EVERYTHING and enough is enough.
Still,I won't forgive you ever again....

I'll motivate myself alone. I am strong enough to see the world again. I believe,everything come for a reasons. No more dwelling,no more. I'm dissappointed cause no one making me angry and upset before. This is too much. Really.

Aku tak sempurna. Aku hanya manusia biase ynag mempunyai perasaan. Tetapi aku masih bersyukur dengan ape yng terjadi.

2009-02-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

ALHAMDULILAH

Tuhan telah menunjuk aku perkara yang sebenar.
The truth hurts,but,aku redha dan aku pasrah dengan ape yng terjadi.
Syukur padamu Ya Allah kerane menyelamatkan aku dari dia.
Things happen for a reason. Aper yng terjadi,aku jadikannye sebagai tauladan yang harus aku pelajari. Aku brsyukur padamu kerana kau telah menunjuk aku siape diri dia yng sebenar. Hati aku remuk tetapi,mungkin ini ada hikmah disebalik ape yng terjadi.
Alhamdulilah,kau telah kabulkan doa-doa ku selame ini. Berilah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran supaye aku dapat melupakannye. Lindungilah diri ku. Aku bersyukur pademu.

A COWARD is the one who have done wrong and will never looked back straight to your face. He will looked to the floor and pretend that he never did anything wrong. Macm rase tak bersalah gitu. A COWARD like him will always be a COWARD forever. Have a cheek to judge my behaviour. Buy a lot of mirror so that you can see your own face and die with it. I'm done with you. Aku jijik tengok muke kau. Tuhan,jauhilah aku dengan orng-orng yang tak ade perasaan. Amin....

So,she will be the next victim of yours.

Thank you,friend.

Karma...will haunt you down,coward.

2009-02-22T21:02:00.005+08:00

Don't bother about my eyes. It's rolling because Sabby disturb me. Hehehe. Anw,this pic was taken last Friday. A short meet up with the girls over at west area (like duh) and thought of having double choc but our stomach were making different kind of noise. Hungry and we grabbed our meal straight away.

We gossip about some artist and model and talked about after life. Anw,thanks for the listening ears girls. I had fun on Friday despite my sickness. I forced myself to eat and lucky no vomit session that I need to bare. It's really painful. :( I miss you guys already. And AK,thank you for the chocolate. So sweet of you. =)

Look at her. She love to tease me with that kind of face. Hymp. Merajok ar.

I vomitted again yesterday after I ate KFC and mom asked me to visit the doc when off day. I don't want anything happen to me. I want my friends to pray for my health please.I'm in normal state and when time come,this sickness come and it's very painfull. For those who 'accuse' me of getting this and although it's just a joke,I find it not funny. Stop 'accusing' me like that. I'm not that bad. PLEASE! Thank you.

I am curious,why guys so easy to fall in love eventhough they are in relationship as well as after breakup? It's easy for them to let the love they built after so long just like that. Falling in love is hard for me. Anw,my dreams all shattered long time ago and it's hard for me to 'built' that dreams again. All I can do is to feel happy. Act and I will try my best to bring my old Linda back. One thing,I'm tired to see all my dreams shattered eversince secondary 5.

Who will be beside me when I need some support?? :'(

2009-02-19T15:39:00.007+08:00

Sorry for the super late update. I don't know what to blog actually. There's so many things happened to me for the past days. I'm really get tired chasing my own dreams that is obviously won't come true. I just can't stand a liar. I'm Dissappointed by the way people treating me. Really pissed me off. They don't know how I really feel deep inside. I pretend nothing happened but the truth is I'm broken inside. If this what they want,I'm letting them go with my heart wide open. Because,I'm dead inside you. "What do you want from me??" question really hit me hard. Thank You!

I miss these ladies very much. I even print out these picture just to place it in my notebook at work. You can see a note just for you people. But I've to keep it to myself. One word for you ladies,THANK YOU! You ladies melt my heart no matter what. I Love You,ladies. ;)On the 16/02/2009,it's our 1 year 10 months together. I miss Sabby,AK and Dyla very much. Since Julia,I've met her almost everyday till we bullied each other at work. LOL. I cannot wait for tommorow to come. It's Double Chocolate Night with them. =)

Ouh god,I'm having a slight fever and I vomitted almost everyday. Morning,during wokr and night. It's the same sickness I get since last year. Dizzy and my appettite is getting lower and lower. Adek,told me to go to see a doctor cause she scared there's something wrong with me. If you are a loyal reader,I'm scared of seeing a doctor as well as swallowing the pills. Thanks to adek for giving vitamin C. Maybe because,I'm lack of vitamins. I asked one of my friend this question,"What if I'm warded in hospital?" Guess what he told me? "Iskk kau nie. Jangan seyy.Seumur hidup aku,aku tak pernah warded." I guess,this is my fate. If,I have this sickness,I'll just say Alhamdulilah,cause everything come from HIM.

On a lighter note of this entire blog,I received a letter from school and I recieved this award. Don't know when can I take the award,guess I need to wait for the school lor. Ouh yeah,I got my 1st ever pay throughout my entire life. My 1st pay,thought I want to treat somone special last time,but since everything was over,I can use that money to shop for my own need! ;) And lastly,2 more weeks to go to end this attachment! I can't wait. I can't wait. *skips around* To Amrul,pelan pelan kayuh ye. :)

I think,I'm going to change my handphone number sooner or later. To wash away and to forget everything that happened to me. This number is unique in someway. I've been using this number since secondary 3. To change or not to change? Hmm.

Look? Whose a liar now? Me or you?

2009-02-13T20:32:00.002+08:00

I am trying very hard to survive.
Sometimes,I think,it's difficult to stay 'alive' when there's problems around you.
My weakest link is to cry over minor thing. Some stupid things. I don't mind to shed my tears cause,I get used to it already. I just can't handle problems. Too hard to handle.

Take a look at the date for today. It's weird and it's scary. But I'm glad today nothing bad happen to me and I'm safe and secure here,at my home. Tommorow,argh,don't want to comment about that. Thank you for the gift,Brenda. Valentines day cum Friends day. I love goodie bag and I love chocolates.

Haze is coming to town. It's really hard to breathe and I really need to bring my oxygen tank here. It's hot,humid and my lips are all dried up.

I'm jealous,cause people are still watching and reading the Twillight. I'm jealous,cause,I didn't get to watch in theather. Because of my stupidity! My bad,my mistakes. =( I want to cry again...

I'm done blogging. My life is bored. But Facebook is my current addiction. ;) I want to eat sotong,now.

..When the image of you appear,I cried....

2009-02-11T12:01:00.004+08:00

3 more weeks left to end this attachment. I'm done with the registeration of the schools and I just hope I can make it! 5 choices and it's hard for me to decide. I hope I can make it. Amin.

Work still sucky cause till now we haven't get our 1st pay! Time management please. When you said 2 weeks of the month of February,it means 2 weeks! Still haven't process our OT form! Argh,makesure by the end of the week I received my pay,if not,I'm gonna complained to the school. Please don't treat us like one student who doesn't know anything. Please treat us like one of your worker ok! Arghh.

Everyone is sick nowadays. Mom,adek and sister sicked and thanks to the whether I think. I just hope I won't sick this year cause the year 2008 I've been sicked like almost every 2 months. Jauhilah diriku dari demam. Amin.

Today,gonna wish,Happy 25th Birthday to Abang! I love you. May ur dreams come true ok. Please be a good abang for us! Sorry if we are such an ass towards you. However,we will gonna sayang you very much! Happy birthday,abang!

Ouh gtg now,cause I haven't had my bath yet. I know I'm smelly,but who cares anyway. Hehehe.

...I kept dreaming about you when the night comes....

2009-02-08T14:28:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday,sweetheart! May your dreams come true and I will always love awak like your boyfriend love you k. Stay cheerful and happy always,cousin! Many kisses from Linda to Shira. =)

No time to go out for fun,believe me!

2009-02-07T20:13:00.008+08:00

Alhamdulilah,at least I managed to smile even if it's hard.

I'm tired. I'm too tired to even look at the computer. This week no,for the past few days,meetings for project work and trying to figure out how to do and thanks to our friend of mine yeah. Still thinking why the hell are we doing this for? For improving their company? Don't think so far,brother!

On Thursday,we decided to meet him over at Bishan library after work to discuss about the project. We are tired but we need to discuss this if not,we really had no time for this. With work and project to do,really we got no time! In fact no time for this unnecessary project. Thanks to him and thanks guys for 'camping' at the Bishan Park till the next day. I'm tired.

Before heading back home. Just look at the time and our face. We are forced to smile! Ouh,on the lighter note,all of us get a hang bao from the company.

Emails ouh emails,where are you,sucker? We got nothing to do from 9am till 530pm today. Such a bore and we can't do project as the person in-charge is off today and Hafizz and I stared at the computer doing nothing. Cannot sleep,cannot surf net and all we do is IP at each other.

That's my desk and my 'beloved' computer! I don't know when is our pay day. Everyone kep asking when is the pay day. Hurry can?

I imagined,life without technology. People's without feelings. The feelings of missing,love,sad,angry. Neutral. People no need to fall in love. Just go dating and that's it. No feelings for each other. Let's just imagine if we have no heart and feelings and no technology? Do you want to be like that? I wonder...

....life is full of lots of up and downs,
and the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
and there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down....

2009-02-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY AM I GETTING INVOLVE IN THIS KIND OF PROJECT THAT I DIDN'T RECALL A SINGLE THING OF WHAT I LEARNT! ALL THEY ASKED FOR WAS 'I WANT THIS AND I WANT THAT'! OR DO YOU WANT OUR SHIT?! OTHER PEOPLE ARE ENJOYING THIER ATTACHMENT BUT NOT US! I'M ANGRY AND TIRED AND FRUSTRATED AND MARAH AND ..........................

I'm sorry for the upper case words. I can't control my feelings becasue of this 1 project. I should have gone to school to do this right! A big son of the gun betul! I benci u know. Benci benci. Ok stop it. I sound so mentel over here. ;) I'm gonna get sick soon,my eyes is pain,my skin is so dull and dry. My hair arghh,kept falling. I felt like I'm having a luekemia.

Ouh man,I need someone beside me right now. I want someone who have pity on me to sit beside me and lent me his/her shoulder please. I don't want to cry but I want someone to hear my story my stressfull life indeed. I live in a nightmare. I hate nightmares. :( Seriously,I'm losing my grip. Tommorrow will be my long day/night together with the team. I think I want to bring tent,extra clothes and food to sleepover at someone's house,can? Haha. Better get ready for tommorow. It's like doing the case study together.

...and I don't want to be a girl who laugh the loudest........

2009-02-01T20:01:00.005+08:00

A lonely road that I have to walk and suddenly,I felt so lonely....

This week we are getting lesser and lesser emails. With the number of peoples on their desk busy replying emails,the emails stop as early as 11am. We got the remaining hours by just sitting around and looking at others who are busy doing their project. Project. It's not as easy as the school project. With his high expectations,I don't think we can managed to do it. I called him,angan-angan tinggi melambung sampai ke planet MARS. Getting fed-up with his 'great' suggestion! Whatever! He talked as if this thing can be done for 4 weeks. I suggest you to try and do what you suggested to us,dude. Plus,the way you speaked to us that Friday really annoying. It's easy for you to say cause,you just ordered us doing this and that but you never know how hard to do this! Let's crack our brains people!

I just don't like people disturbing my sleeping hours especially when you need to wake up for work tomorrow. The frustrated part was that,he just called for nothing and who the hell are you? Calling in the middle of the night without purpose? Don't act dumb and don't you dare to call me again cause I'm going to press the red button just for you! I don't care if you msg me but please,don't call unless there's something important to say! Go and do some house chores if you can't sleep at night and making other people's life suffer. Get a life!

Pardon me for the angry-frustrated post. This week,people around me just love to see me in this mood. Work,at home,my life. People don't know my exact feelings here unless I tell. They just look at my outer look but not my inner me. I cried whenever I calmed myself down. The way they talked to me sometimes it hurts deep inside my heart but since I got Him,I try my very best to be patience. Look at the brighter side of me and get back in a peace state. I laugh like a normal people. I just need to be strong enough to pull my sadness away.

4 critical weeks left and let's see where should I go from here. Endurance is the important pillar for you,Linda.

....and finally i say te amo to you.......

2009-01-29T14:34:00.004+08:00

I rather watch the sky all day then replying to emails. Some customer really stupid and because of one soul,I get some talking session with my TL,Sham that Monday. Alright,here is the story. The customer wanted the software very much but the thing is,he don't have the compatible operating systems. The software needs a Windows Vista but stupid Ciaran[his bloody name] have the Windows XP only and obviously,it won't work. So,for the 1st email,I sent him the wrong link and I know it's my fault. He replied to me and say,that he want that software amd 2nd reply,I sent the correct link and I've explained to him,why he cannot use the software as he did not have the Vista. So,I sent. The next day,[which is my off day] one of my collegue received that email and the email sound like this,"Dear Haslinda,are you purposely making me frustrated? I DO NOT HAVE WINDOWS VISTA!!!!! blah blah blah. If you siderequest my email again,I'm gonna make sure that your name is all over the Creative Forum!" Eww,like I scared like that. Ok,what,I can become popular afterall! So,Sham debriefed me and he said,I should explained in detailed as in why he cannot use the software. I explained already! Stupid customer. Grrr!

Forget about the customer. It only makes my blood rise up whenever I recalled that email. I've been working for the 2 days of CNY. I prefered the empty office with less car and people. Getting extra pay for working on Public Holiday. I can't wait for the cheque! =) The friends have already decide what to buy for their 1st pay and as for me,I haven't decide yet,but I'm sure gonna buy new clothes for myself and the rest I'll save it. It's my first time working and getting paid and of course I'm so excited! Another 6 more weeks and tomorrow is Friday already and then weekends. Time files so fast like superman.

Yesterday,my bad day. It's minor bad day! First,I was about to go to the toilet when suddenly,the cleaner was still washing the toilet. It take up half and hour to finish cleaning!! 2nd,after lunch,the hot MILO drink from the 10cent vending machine does not look like MILO,it looks like ewwwwwww. No refund and I let it go. Ishkk!
3rd,hot nescafe spilled on my clothes and thanks to Aida eh. Hehehe. My wallet and my handphone cover almost get wet by Nescafe! My clothes smell nescafe,eww. Last but not least,someone step on my feet at the MRT!!! Ouh man,just my luck!

Today,my rest day and 1 day of rest is not enough for me. Sleep till the clock almost strike 12pm today. I slept kind of early yesterday,but my tiredness still haven't gone. Hopefully,tomorrow everything goes so smoothly yeah. I just hope no more nonsense from the customer from EUROPE! They are one irritating bunch of people! Unfortunately,customer are always right in our eyes! Crapp!!

I want to eat sushi,drink double chocolate and have my chit-chat session with the friends. I want to eat more and more and more till I can see my cheeks again. Now,I'm craving nasi ayam at BAGUS. ;)

My Heart,My Life,My Everything.....

2009-01-24T20:32:00.007+08:00

Holaa! Sorry for the late update. I know,my blog is already belapok like what sabby said. I got really no time to update this precious blog of mine. Ok,let's not waste time. Let me talk about what happened for the past few days,alright!

Work is still an average for me but I managed to achieved my aimed to complete the emails. Day by day,I'll get lesser emails. I tell you it's not even 6pm and I didn't do anything else except doodling on my paper. I put the word BORED. My life is getting boring I guess. All,I can do is to eat,drink,slack. Everyday including today. No emails after 2 pm. GAH! Plain boring. But,it's experience for me and for evveryone.

Our usual port. Smoking! ;)

Ouh yeah. Yesterday,I saw that ADIDAS guy again. He's wearing adidas again and now with shades. Cool shiT! I should stop seeing that guy lah. The more I see,the worst I feel. Not good for me. Sob Sob.

Yesterday and today,my TL didn't come. Sham. He did not come today as he's taking 2 days off. My department quite quiet cause he's not at his table for the last 2 days. Kind of miss him esp his sacarcism and the word he always speak lah. Cannot say here,very vulgarity. Hehe. Sham,for me he's ok ok lah.

Nothing much to blog actually,but I wonder what am I suppose to do,if I didn't achieve my goal? I've been wanting this school for so long. What if I dissapoint my parents? I really want this to happen. I want this to come for reality,not fantasy.

I want to follow that someone to Liverpool and I want that someone to follow me to Manchester one day.But I still want to go to Paris tomorrow....

2009-01-18T17:08:00.010+08:00

I'm so GREEN yesterday. =)

Yesterday,met the cousins over at Marina Square after my working hours. Initially,I should meet them at bowling center where they played without me,however,changed plan and met them at Pizza Hut instead. The feeling of tiredness gone when I saw them! =)

While queing up for the seats.

At last. Before you eat,pose for the camera and start to say Bismilah and yeah,eat. =)

Planned to go to Marina Barrage but it's getting late and the free shuttle bus ended at 8pm and we didn't notice. How pathetic. Maybe next time we shall go there together like yesterday alright. =)

Marina Bay. Full of the bangla and the foreigners workers plus the place quite dusty I tell you. Not good for people who wears contact lens like me. One advise,put on shades although it's late at night. Hehe. I hate Marina Bay already...

Argh,tomorrow working and jezz I hate it. Please hurry. I'm getting tired of the job already. BUT! I can't wait for the pay day to come lah. There's so many things I want to buy and I aimed something yesterday. Can someone remind me to save some money in my bank before I spend all the money? Thank you. People! 7 more weeks to go. Countdown.....

I'm strong enough to look at other people's happiness......

2009-01-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

Is this the path that I should walk? A feeling as lonely as this path..... Hey it's Jan 16! Unfortunately it's gone...

Sorry for the late update. My Internet connection is down and I swear,I can't live without my Internet connection lah. How's my working? Hmm,I should say it's really ok and I find it,tiring. Although you just sit and reply those emails,but,by sitting down it's really painful especially your back. Hurts like I don't know what to say. Today,I did 25 emails and by right I should do more. Luckily the exam,I did well for it and my partner in front is the highest! Walao! Hate you. HEHHE. Joking. ;)

Tuesday,met the 2 lovely girls again. We will never get tired seeing each other. Because,we are blend it already. Ouh man,I miss them already. Bohoo.. :'( Let's meet every week lah. We joke around and let our stress from work down. =) Don't worry after today we will have another 7 more weeks of working life. Countdown. And and and March hurry hurry! I can't wait for this to overrrr.

I got my 2 day off and yeah,I shouldn't tell lah when unless to my closest frens. ;) Why should I tell people who I don't really know. Waste time. Hahaha.

Today,date with Julia and we headed to IMM to check check out for someone but that someone don't have. ;) We bought sushi and have our mini-dinner at the playground. We talked and talked till 747pm. The night is getting darker and we decided to go home. Wah sian. Actually,I haven't take my bath yet lah. Hehe. =) I know I'm smelly,can shut up? So yeah,that's all about it. My life is so bored that I can become a nerd one day. =)

I hope it's not the same people who I'm getting to know with. But my feeling saying he is the same guy......

2009-01-12T20:34:00.004+08:00

Had a very bad day today. It's my 1st time sitting on the chair and what I can do is to look at computer and reply all those emails. Emails here and there. Ouh,I did cry. That's the only thing I can do other then IP people. I just hope there's friends around me. But they busy with their own stuff. It's bad day today. I hate it. I hate Monday. Obviously it's Monday blues. Should have bring my Sabby here. HEHe. We can typed email and sang song. Rock song perhaps. 30STM! Tokio Hotel! Paramore! Anything that can do with Rock Song. And I miss my slacking days where I'm not that discipline. I miss waking up late for my school. Playing around in school and lastly that makcik kat canteen!!! Nak hotdog and her chicken laksa!!!! Yum2. Sedapnye. =( I miss looking at those cute boys and that guy especially. ;) No no not you,YOU! Hehhehe.

Hopefully can bump into you again,MR ADIDAS.Always saw him at CCK MRT early in the morning where he will bring adidas bag,wears his adidas slippers,shorts and clothes. And fuh,cool or what? ;)

Happy 58th Birthday to dearest Dad! I love you like a lot!! I miss you.

I want to bump into you again so that I can talk to you.....

2009-01-11T20:03:00.003+08:00

One week of attachment has just past and tomorrow is the day for my 'real stuff'. Scared. I've seen the rest and I can sense that,it's challenging and at the same time it's boring. Imagine sitting infront of the computer and reply 40 over emails per day. Hopefully,CLE region is more relaxing? Not. =( Ok,just not looking forward for tomorrow. 8 more weeks. =)

Friday,after work,met Sabby and AK over at MacCafe and yeah,it's time to let everything out since u kept it like a week? Julia and I too. We were so kecoh and yeah,I missed them very much. Every seconds. =) Shall meet more often to keep in touch with you guys. Ouh yeah,Friday was AK's Birthday. So,Happy 18th Birthday AK! =)
Now,I missed them already.

I feel like joining this group can???

.....and for the 1st time,he talked to me.

2009-01-07T20:13:00.012+08:00

What did I do for my last weekends? Ouh well,I had some fun for my weekends ok. I mean before our attachment starts,we have to enjoy first right? Ok,let's staright to the point,last Saturday,Sabby,Ak and I met up to have our mini outing. Mini. Because of the number that came that day. Walk around and I got brought my bubbles to play. I found it at home actually. ;) It's great and relaxing. Although we missed watching sunsets over there. Locations? For me to know and for you to find out! =)

Double Chocolate time. =)

So,last Sunday,it was my lovely adek's 18th Birthday,so the family decided to eat outside and yeah,eating outside as a family are so much loved,can? =)

Monday,starts of our attachment and everything was ok. We had our training first before we get to see the real thing. Lucky there's friends there I mean my own classmates as my collegue. We,laughed a lot till the Manager told us to be quiet. :P The office was like one of those hospital and I think I might get sick seeing the alley. The premesis was alright but the people there was so "tak mesra alam". Endure I guess.

Ouh,did I tell you what's my job actually? It's about responding to the customers' email and Hafizz and I incharge of the Europe. So yeah,I'll tell you when we will be going to Europe alright....NOT! More like customer service and we use email to reply. Lots of software need to absorb to my head. Before that,the training is all about MP3s trouble shooting. Differece between MTP and MSC players. We get to see all types of MP3 players and I'm in love with the latest MP3! I want to bring it home can? Zen X-FI,Zen Vision W,Zen Mozaic,I love all! =)

The picture above are from Monday. This is our favourite port. ;)

Tuesday. Photo-taking at our favourite port. After lunch,we will get there to chill. =)

The pantry. Our 2nd favourite port! =)

And today. Shall not say anything good. Because,it's getting harder and weirder. Just pray hard that I can really do this. Stay on focus and relax....

Till here,take care people. =)

I watched the sunset alone today.......

2009-01-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't updated my blog. Well,I will update when I got time to really sit down and type everything here. So far so good. We had so much laughter. =)

2009-01-02T16:01:00.020+08:00

2 January 2009,my 1st entry of 2009,begins...

Just pictures and no words. =)

Bukit Batok. Watching Sunset from the hill. It's early 2008.

City Hall Mrt Station. Doing project with them exclude Raidah. Early 2008 too.[They very the manje with me hehehhehe.]

Causeway Point. Having our lunch there. 17/01/2008

After photo-taking at Bugis Street,after school. On the way home. 30/01/2008.

MVB class. My partner-in-crime. =) 22/01/2008.

Maths class. My partner-in-crime. We listened to MP3 while Soong teach. 29/02/2008.

We were selected to go to CISCO company. The trios. 22/02/2008.

At Science Center. After our study group. =) 05/03/2008.

Closing book session at IMM. 07/03/2008.

This is where,we ditched soong class and head to Vivo City to play UNO. It's our last day of schools. 12/06/2008.

Networking class. 24/07/2008

At one of the study corner near the cargo lift. 30/07/2008.

Watched dark night with Dyla at Jurung Point. 04/08/2008.

JAVA class. 20/08/2008.

Lifeskill is no fun for me. Boring. Hee. 19/11/2008.

It's cold networking class. =) 04/12/2008.

So that's it. I followed sabby's style but this is from my handphone pictures only! 100% my handphone. As you can see,we do a lot of things together. Eat together,having fun together. Hehhe.. Look at my face. A bit different. From pony-tail to bun.

I can't wait to start off with my attachment this coming Monday. Nervous yes. Excited a bit. So,wish me luck yeah. Can't wait for tomorrow,baby. =)

Have a ncie weekends. =)

You want,you take it. You don't want,you smashed it. That's cruel......

2008-12-31T14:56:00.004+08:00

Today mark the last day of 2008. Tomorrow will be the start of a brand new day and year. We will be turning a year older and as for my batch of 1989,the big number 20 will hitting us soon. There will be no more number 1 infront. The number change as well as our behaviour. Our teenage years gonna end soon and it's time to see the real world. As for me,a brand new life for me. I think about it and if I got the chance to got to Poly,I'll just go and learn more. If not,I'll just make money by working. It's time to think about myself and my future. Those minor things,I'll just put one side and let it burn on it's own. It's easy for me.

My resolutions,lets just keep it as a secret. Maybe,if I make the resolutions,some of it I won't follow. By speaking,it's not enough. I'm going to miss all my buddies from my school especially my classmates. Those who really clicked to me. I remember my 1st friends in ITE. I met these 2 girls outside the classroom where I suddenly make them think I'm a gangster. Hehe. Siti NurSabrina and Nur Fadhilah. 1st day of school went to Vivo and have our lunch there. LJS! See,I remember. Hehehe. After a while,days by days and months and months,we clicked with the rest of the people including,Julia and Raidah. The more the merrier till now. Gonna miss you guys.

Well,I just hope 2009 will be a great year with colourful memories,meeting new friends or meet new crush.. Hehehehe. I'm kidding like duhh.. Just see how,2009 gonna be look like. =)

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1...............HAPPY NEW YEAR,BABES AND DUDES!

I'm jealous cause my sister get to go to Escape Theme Park tomorrow. =(

You will never be by my side. Crap!

2008-12-29T14:59:00.012+08:00

It's Monday and how was your weekends? I had a great weekend cause Saturday I get to go out with the brother and his gf. He asked me to accompany him to Bugis to shop for jeans and I,windowed-shopped. =) If can,I would like to go out every single day cause,I felt bored not at home but at myself. Window-shopped therapy can make me relax a bit. ;)

Next stop,Suntec City. Sales everywhere and everyone is in the Christmas mood. Shop till they drop. One dress,one adidas bag,one sandals caught my eyes. Felt like buying the dress but.... I don't have the kaching! So yeah,window shopped again. Pss,it's my first time going to Suntec City plus the Fountain of wealth. ;)

So,2008 gonna leaving us soon and I think we all gonna miss those days together.
2008 is great but not as great as 2007. 2008 is the year where I 1st watch soccer until now. Where I 1st getting attached. 2008 is the year where my friends lectured me a lot. For good of course. Without them,I'm nothing. 2008,where I found my real heart,how it broken into many pieces,how I handled it and how I glued the broken pieces of my heart. Difficult yet it's life afterall. 2008 where I get to know a lot of people. New friends,new classmates. So,what's gonna 2009 gonna be like? Is it the same as 2008? Is it time to change? What's your resolutions? 2 more days to 1/1/2009! Hope it gonna be useful years with so many happy faces. =) It's time to focus on future and not anything else. Cheers. ;)

31/12/2008,fireworks at Marina Bay. ;)
Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru 1430. =)

Endure and Tolerate..... But How Long?

2008-12-26T15:43:00.003+08:00

We all here with you.
Stay strong and always remember that GOD will always hear your/our prayers.
Condolences to your family.
May he rest in peace. Amin.

I don't know when is my turn to go......

2008-12-23T15:03:00.009+08:00

Happy 26th Birthday To Beloved Sister,Nur Hida! =) May your dreams come true.

Shopping for shoes yesterday with the sister and the cousin. It's only Monday and lots of people mostly them,shop for Christmas Day. Actually,I don't like to go for shopping,but since I need some retail therapy,I'll just go and grab those shoes. Nice and I loved it! I got myself 2 pairs of shoes. Thanks for a a pair of shoe sister. =) Window-shopped for clothes and that dress is nice! Need to save up some cash.

While walking around,saw many familiars faces mostly Doverian people and one of them is Amrul. Plaza Singapura is our last place to go before we say bye bye to the cousin. I don't know when we can meet again and bitch about people. ;)
To you,I'm sorry for cancelling our movie date yesterday.

To believe or not to belive,I leave it to GOD.....

2008-12-22T13:02:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulilah. I got a job at that company and will start my attachment on the 5th of January. Alhamdulilah. =)

And congrats to Manchester United for becoming the Champion of the FIFA CLUB WORLD CLUB! Thanks to Wayne Rooney for scorring the goal at 73 mins. =) ManU will always be the champion. Get it? =)

I miss my friends. I miss myself.

2008-12-20T15:29:00.003+08:00

Changed the layout into something plain. Getting tired of the previous design and yeah,tada new layout for checkitout-gerl. ;) There's one person asked me to close down this blog of mine and create new url and I think that's troublesome. I promised myself that I won't close down my checkitout-gerl without valid reasons. Wait till I die,then I'll give you the password to shutdown my blog. I've been using this blog for 2 years 7 month and I won't simply shut just like that. Thanks to Shakina. ;) No matter what happen,noone can make me shutting down this blog of mine. Thank You. It's easy,if you don't like my blog,you can simply say SAYONARA. Thank You.

How do you handle your problems? What do you do,if you don't have anyone to talk to? Well,as for me,when I'll talk to myself before I go to sleep. Talk to myself like as if you're talking to someone. Maybe other's find it funny or insane but that's my habit since I'm a kid. Talking infront of the mirror is the best because you can see your own reflection. I really don't care what people think about me anymore cause this is real me. As long as I didn't bother other people's life,that's fine,right? That's how I handle my probs. But certain problems,I need to hear from other people's opinion too. ;)

Ouh,I think I really need to makan a lot. I'm losing weight and I felt so weak. My appetite is currently down and I should eat more fats to gain my fats back! Ugh!

Anw,did I mention to you that I've got my new pet? ;) Hehe. Since I hate real animals as my pet,I created this cute pet of mine in FaceBook. Her name is Balin. Say hello to Balin... ;) Ok,that's about it cause I want to play with my Balin later on. SAYONARA. =)

Searching for my happiness.....

2008-12-19T14:21:00.002+08:00

I shall give Twilight a missed.
Sad. But it's ok. I rather wait for the DVD then to waste money.
Hmmmmm....

Still waiting for the call.
Patiently waiting. Days by days.

I'm bored. Holiday is very boring and I thought it was fun but turn out to be boring! I want to go for a real holiday. Overseas! Shopping,sightseeing and many2 more.I missed my holiday at overseas. =(

I want to watch fireworks with you again.........

2008-12-16T13:22:00.015+08:00

There's no point for me to dwell so much of what happened to me recently. Because,there's other people who is really suffer than me. For me,my problems is too little that it can forget just like that. Hokey! I'll try and look on the brighter side of me and breathe in the cool/fresh air outside. There's no need for me to sad like someone's dead. 'Cause,I'm alive so do my family and my friends. ;) Thank you,folks for being there when I truly needed you all by my side. I won't forget that,because you people made my day! *kiss kiss hugs hugs you many2*

So,yesterday,went for an interview at this company,everyone including me wears smartly for this interview. Met the friends at jurung east interchange and off we went for the interview. We were so nervous upon reaching at the company. Seriously,it's my first time going for an interview and luckily there's them who can really ease my tension. Before we went for the interview,we were asked to do some 'class' test first and to my suprised,it's all about what we studied in school. We ended up asking each other for the answers as usual...... At 4 plus,the interview started and I answered his questions hmm,averagely and a bit confident. Well,I just hope I can get to work at this company. =)

After our interview,head to Lucky Plaza for our dinner with Sabby and Arm. We apologised for the waiting. We didn't expect out interview to finish later. Sorry to you people. Ayam Penyet is good but still the sambal belacan is damn spicy and I think Soda Gembira is not a very good combination drinks to drink for cannot-tahan-pedas people like me! But,I did finished the food yeah. =) We later walk around the town area and it's a beautiful night with Christmas lights on the streets and people everywhere taking pictures with the Christmas trees. What a beautiful night although it's wet day. Walked till Plaza Singapura and chill at Starbucks with not very good view. Boring but since we 3 girls brought our camera along,we camwhore like crazy people! =)

We laughed the loudest can? Because we are born to be funny people with no problems at all. Hahaa. Ya right! And I loved these bunch of people lah. Once we quiet but when one bully each other,they can be wild! Exclude me ok. Hehhehehe. Anw,reached home at 1030pm and I know dad is not pleased with me coming back home at night. And I love hanging out at night can? Peaceful! ;)

I'm not seeing noone but myself.

2008-12-13T13:16:00.003+08:00

She's know me better. She's makes me feel safe. She's the one who I need most right now. 'Cause I'm sad terribly. I cried like a baby the moment I'm alone. I don't know who I want to tell this to. Everything happened so fast and my I'm down with cold fever. I don't know what to do and all I do is to cry loudly in my room. How I wish she knows my problems and comfort me? :(

In just a blink of an eyes,people can change their mind so fast. Left me hanging all alone. Left me questioning what did I do wrong? Left me without good valid reasons. I'm regret really really regret for knowing you since March 2008. Sometimes,this is just a test from the GOD,to see my ability of being patience and strong. I need guidence from you,GOD. But,I need someone who can guide me,makes me happy,loves me sincerly,protect me,listens to my problems,heal my sickness and lent me his shoudler for me to cry on. Accept the way I am. Not forcing yourself to love me. I thought I found it,but he's not the one I'm looking for. He's just messing around with my heart and my mind. I pray to GOD,that I will never see his face again,not in school or anywhere else. Making me proud of myself for being myself.

And for now,my heart is lock for you............

2008-12-12T15:23:00.007+08:00

This week. Hectic week! Where,we need to finish up our projects and test after test.
Our head spinned when come to advanced networking phase test. Everything was over and the 'reward' I received is,I'm down with slight fever. My throat pain and everything is so painful. Heartpain. Headache. Plus,my eyes pain. Shit!

And for the first time,I shouted at GOH! For being so lame and being so boring teacher ever? Call,1 time,2 time but ignored me. Once I shout,then 1 to come. Deaf or what? Argh!

So what's the plan for holiday? Hmm,I don't know. Book a date and let's go out and let out all the stressful week we had!
Seriously,I need to go shopping for new shoes. ;) Shopping anyone? Hehehehe.

This coming Monday,interview at this company and this is stressful. Ayoyoyoyo.
On my way home,I saw him again and I can't believe it's him who I bump into. Thanks for the towel plus the about-to-give-me-tissue. At least there's someone who can cheered me up. *huggies....Not* I paisey can?

Last but not least, GOODBYE DOVER and THE PEOPLE who BORES ME like HELL! =)
I did not enjoy every moment of my life there. 2008 sucks[but I still love my classmate] and I still love the bonding of 2007. 2007,year which I always kene scolding by my mom and dad. I love it! ;) This year,hmm,she didn't scold at all. She will ask why? Alhamdullilah,I think she understands already. Hehhee. Naughty Linda. =) Can I be naughty like 2007?

I still remember these days.
It opened my eyes to see the real world.
=)
Happy Holiday.

2008-12-10T15:06:00.004+08:00

Vomitted again this morning.
My head is spining around as usual and now my body feel so warm. Having a slight fever and I promise myself that I will swallow that panadol.
Mom asked me to go for a check-up and maybe I'll go during one of the days.

School is getting boring and boring.
But,lucky we are the lucky one.
2 more days and i'm so looking foward to my attachment after holiday.
I just receieved my company yesterday and we need to come for interview this Friday.
How? I never been to job interview before? What to say eh?
Just be myself. =)
Plus what should I wear??
Hehehe... ;)
People in school are also,getting boring and boring, I'm so tired to be in that environment! Except for my classmates and the people who I really know.
Seriously,I wanna out from DOVER,can?

And I think Edward Cullen is cuteeee! ;)

I dreamt about this beautiful place and it makes me feel so peaceful.......

2008-12-08T11:52:00.005+08:00

My mood is not good today. People around me making me pissed off just like that.
Although today supposed to be my happy day,but I get pissed with their attitude! Just don't want to waste time typing down what happened just now. Seriously,I'm pissed and I cried for a while today. Early morning and it's really annoying.

How do you feel when both ur parents said that you are STUPID just in one day and on the same time??

Down with fever yesterday. My head hurts and still hurts.

Anw,Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha!

No more shoulder to cry on.......

2008-12-07T15:58:00.002+08:00

My headache is killing me right now.
How I wish I chop my head and let me rest in peace.
This is killing me.
Seriously.

So many things to do,so little time.
Test and project dateline and blah blah.
Problems here and there.
Personal problems is one thing.
Let me rest. Let me rest. Let me rest.

I remember when my heart broke.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
My heart couldn't take no more of you.
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when I walked out.
I remember when I said I hated you.
But somehow deep inside still loving you.
Sad and lonely.

2008-12-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

Miss Independent.
Can I?
I'm shutting myself from relationship for now. [insyaallah]
'Cause,I'm tired. Really really tired.
It's killing me when I'm too exhausted.
For once,let me be the one who is selfish.
Let me rest.
Give me some space,cause I can't breathe properly now.
Let me,please.....

There's no need for me to cry now.....

I'm cold.

2008-12-03T19:27:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah.
Everything is over like FINALLY. Alhamdulilah.
What I planned to say,is already being said.
I had enough of this and this is it,I'm finally free like a bird.
Forget what happened and move on with my life.
My life is interesting before this and I missed it so much.
After this,I need to spend more time with family and friends because,they come first before anything else.
It's for my own good and I should be more positive.
I love myself. No one understand me better other than myself.
Thus,I shall not typed what happened just now anymore,cause,I've already end my love story here.........

Alhamdulilah. =)

2008-12-02T20:20:00.003+08:00

I'm in the middle of study mode and my heart and my brain are 'heavy' to continue.
DBP test is tomorrow and I've just writing down some notes on my paper. Before I cry while I study,let me just type out something here.

I can be strong when,they are here beside me.
But when I'm alone,something is always in my mind,thinking and thinking and 'this' thing come out but I ignored it.
Everyone have their own stories to share but as for me,I kept my mouth shut. To recall what happened,it's painful.
Once,I hold back my tears,but today,I let the tears rolling down my cheeks as soon I stared 'at the back'.
What I said to her yesterday,was somehow true but deep inside my heart,there's this 'thing' loitering around in my heart.
One of my old fren said,"you was strong enough for this,how come it turn out to be like this?"
Just so you know,I'm weak when it involve my heart.
So,should I say I lost or should I say I've win the battle?
I'm still wise enough to think what's good and what's bad for me.
But..... Why? Why I ended up being like one kid,who need to be taught?
I'm dissappointed and I regret.
Can I hold on to the pole this time round??

I'm half-hearted.
Should I follow one of my heart or should I follow the other one?

I lose my concentration on my studies and I just can't be bother for my test tomorrow.
I'm losing myself.
Let's just ctrl + C tml.

I Live In A Lonely Road........

2008-11-30T15:15:00.014+08:00

I can't believe that I'm alone here at home. Everyone went out with their own agenda. Me? I'm stuck all alone,feeling a little bit lonely here. I'm bored and only non-living things are accompany me right now. Thank you non-living things.

I was checking my friendster profile when there's this guy who he added me few days back sent me this comment saying that he saw me when he's working at CCK MRT. I was like woah,no one ever recognised me before and he managed to recognise me? Haha. I think he's seeing the wrong person. But it's not a big deal or something. And and and,there's this guy gave me friendster msg and thought that I'm a teacher. WTH wrong with him? Just because of my appearence,he tot that I'm a teacher. I told him that,it's so impossible of me becoming a teacher. Hehehe. Macam-macam.

I found this,at her cd. The pictures were like 6 months old,I guess.

Sometimes I think,where's my real privacy?
Can't I have a little more space for me to do my own thing?
My phone,my desk and it's in my room.
Why,can't you respect my privacy?
Did I enter your privacy before?
I should not say no moreee.

I want you but...........

2008-11-29T17:20:00.002+08:00

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed (showed)?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone (alone)
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today- Kelly Clarkson[Walk Away].

Don't take things for granted.
I hate wars and I hate when they killed one of our people.
Innocent people died just like that and left those terrorist survive with bad intentions.
Why creating war and involve those who are innocent?
Where are all the people who are responsible?
Just wish those who were captured by them,go home safely.
GOD,help those people.

After Sunday,2 weeks left.

2008-11-28T20:00:00.003+08:00

While I blog,I listen to different types of songs. Reading the lyrics and when the song is not good,I'll change to another one. Obviously,Linda had nothing to do at this moment.

I guess my life right now is not as cheerful as it was. No more interesting stories to share. My life now is as plain as a sheet of paper. It's empty and white and it's boring. Just waiting for the right time to find my real happiness. Right now,I'm trying my very best to be happy and be who I am. The real me. But sometimes,my heart beats very fast like as if something is missing somewhere. But I put my wide smile on my face just to ignore the beating of my heart. Why? I,myself also don't know what's happening. I'm so envy looking at the other's. Their life are so perfect that they can do whatever they want. Left and right,people looking at them and praising them like one prince and princess. Why,their life is so perrfect? Haiz. Goodluck is on their side I think.

I remember,there's one fellow,who sent me this birthday msg saying that,"Don't let people bring you down and always believe in yourself......"[well something like that] By reading the sms-ed,I was so touched and glad.
After what happened,I think there's no need for this fellow to send this msg if this fellow always brings me down.
Should I believe in whatever people said?
Should I let people bring me down easily?
=(

I need my own rainbow......

2008-11-27T21:09:00.005+08:00

Ahhhh!! Like finally I can switch on my brother's computer and updatee. *phew* Ok,let's not waste time.

First and foremost,Happy 19th birtdhay Amrullah. =)

Today,it's class photo taking session and the girls were wearing white except for Sabby. Preety cool and I'm so excited! Not only me,but the girls and boys too. Ayid brought some green-colour-gel and styled the rest of the boys's hair. After a few minutes,their hair turned green colour and off they went for the photo-taking. Ahem,kalahkan orng perempuan bersolek. =) Lalalala.

And as for SnW,thought of playing soccer but changed plan and ended up we played batminton. Divided into 3 groups and have a mini competition between us. Later part of the game,get irritated by the boys who were playing sepak takraw and volleyball. Volleyball inside the hall? Bikin kelakar ke ape,nie budak2? Plus,STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING BIG MORONS! Thank you. Before that,I got hit by this takraw ball on my back. Ah Ouch! I think I need to practise more on my batminton skills. Especially,the serving part. I'm crap ok. Heh. Continue to play till 3 to 4 and went down to the canteen to rest before going home. Mind you,I reached home and straight away eat my mommy's cooking. =)

As for Tuesday and Wednesday,I did not know how to put them in WORDS.
One word,SIGH!

BUT! I think I Know WHO.....

"I missed those beautiful days....."

What's Yours Is Yours-J

2008-11-24T20:36:00.002+08:00

Post number 2 of the day.

SnW is great for today,becasue I get to play the badminton and also running on the treadmill. =) I managed to run like for 1km only. As usual,my stamina low and whenever I run,I'll tend to walk. It's all in the mind. And now,my body aching,aching and aching. My muscles is aching too. Amrul,let's run again this Thursday! Kiter challenge k. Hehhehe. =) How I wish I can run at the track. Like real only, Linda. But,I think I should excersise more. I want to do sauna,can?

And I can't wait for this Thursday baby. At 11am. Cool sia. =)
So many things are kept inside my brain. So many things to do so little time.
Before holiday,need to hand in video,storyboard,bussiness plan/template,case study and argh,why so many things? *slap forehead*
But it's ok,I really need to get really busy from now onwards and I don't want to think about something that can make me go crazy/mad. Aku pasrah.

After this,holiday started and after holiday,it's my attachment. I think that's cool enough for me and for soem people there. Taking me for granted and I'm getting busy,mind you. No time for this and that.That people mesti suke. BAH! Whateverr.

Since amrul don't like the song by KATY PERRY,btw,katy perry is not HOT and is not SEXY at ALL. Those who say she's hot,MAKE SURE YOU GO AND GIVE YOUR EYE A CHECKUP! Becasue YOU ARE DEADLY BLIND! Once again,KATY PERRY IS NOT HOT n SEXY! Blueek. Err ok,back to the song,I think I would like to change my song. Amrul please don't complain ok. ;)

Aching please go away! =(

2008-11-24T09:58:00.002+08:00

It's school day today and I just hope this week will be my wonderful week with the people. Unlike the week before. Trying hard to forget what happen.

Ouh shoosh,my other computer died on me since the last two days. Very bad compuiter and I think there's no need to repair. Mom,dad,let's just throw the computer. Ouuh wait,all my pics should be delete first. Hayoo..

Ok.I think I should get ready for school. ;)

Don't challenge me to make stupid decision.
To you,be careful what you wish for!

2008-11-21T21:09:00.001+08:00

Happy legal 18th Birthday,Julia Farhana. =)
Like finally,she's legal already. ;)

2008-11-20T19:42:00.009+08:00

Hello,hello! =) I changed the music and it's for YOU! ;)

Let's just pretend nothing happen for today alrite. ;)
Today,most of my click didn't come for the lesson. Dyla,sicked. Sabby and Ak,having SC and received sms from Amrul saying that he woke up late. As usual. =) So left only Raidah and Julia doing our 'work'. I know,we know huh. =) But I did some work ok. Since,that people like to make my mood down and stuff and blah blah blah,Raidah,Julia and I headed down to VivoCity to have our lunch there. And for the first time Raidah went with us. Cool huh. Amalkan selalu ye,raidah. Hehe. Window shopped at Best Denki,looking for laptops,Mp3/4,Earphone,games and I loved the trial for the racing game using steering wheel! I can be a good racer right? =) Then,left Me and Julia alone and went back to J.E. Bought bubble tea because we havent drink since we ate. Hehe. So,we sat at this place and chat2 bout an hour and finally home sweet home. =) I say best,can?

So,yesterday, freaking FIRE DRILL day AGAIN. As usual,when come to fire drill,the IT department is the most attitude department ever esp the 2nd year students. So,pampered that they can't even step on the muddy field. So,IT2N,as usual,sat down and took pic before we went up for shades. Damn hot ok. Look at the pic above and see our eyes. ;)

In class yesterday. Nothing to do,took many pics with my bubble gum. =)

I gained weight i guess. Haha. Ouh btw, yesterday double chocolate cum ghost story telling is great. Hehe.. AK,jng takut ok. ;)

Alright,fella,need to study for tml practical assignment. Bubbye. ;)

I thought I'm all alone when the sun is setting down,but no, there's always them who will shine the light on my face. Make it brighter and brighter each day. And to you,WHATEVERRR. =)

2008-11-18T14:37:00.002+08:00

Life is really unfair.
Unfortunately,that's what life is.
We got no choice, but to face it.
Running from a problem cannot solve everything.
By running,it involves another people. It hurts,really hurts.
However,that particular someone who is involve should stay strong and not dwell on the problems. Instead,looking at the bright side and stay positive all the time. Only,those who are really giving up,can run from the problems without thinking about people around them.
Angry,sad,dissappointed,hurt and regret is all inside the box of that someone's feelings. The feelings which can't be describe any further.
Every problems has their own solutions. Pick the best solution and everything gonna be fine.
That someone is trying to understand but that person is hiding and hiding and hiding. No sharing and no talking. Hiding is really bad solution and that person cannot be hiding for so long.
No harm sharing.
No harm talk things out.
Just remember,running or hiding from the problems cannot let you go anywhere. Think about it,that person. =(

Life is really unfair.

2008-11-16T20:42:00.003+08:00

So,yesterday went to airport with mom just to send my aunt and uncle for Haj. We arrived quite early and headed down to the staff canteen to have our late lunch there. By 5 plus,went up to the departure floor and looked for them. So many people and kind of kecoh and I hate the chaotic environment. =( Bumped into her again yesterday. =)

When they are about to go,I just remembered how sad my feelings were when both my parents went to Haj 2 years ago. Before they go in for check in,I kept hugging them and tears of sadness rolling down my cheecks. Both my parents never left me before and that time I'm done for my O levels paper and my dream to find a job was cancelled because I need to take care of the house and my sibling's foods as well. Look,I was just 17 that time and my mom have prepared the recipe for me to cook. Do the laundry and cleaned the house. While they were busy working/schooling,I do the household chores. I'm aloned! Only my computer kept me company. ;) But,I can't leave without my parents around. Ouh,how time flies huh. 2 years has gone and I still remember that till now.

Do we look alike? =)

Such a boring Sunday eventho it is suppose to be my happy day. Boring boring boring.
I'm bored. But today,majlis orang kahwin dibawah block saya dan saya dapati ramai artis yng datang ke majlis itu. Coolness.=) The songs somehow bring my moods up. Chill babe. =)

Ouh ya,5 goals for ManUnited. Good Job! =)

2008-11-13T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hello! I just HATE that east side college.
I don't know why,but it's just not my type.
My opinion only. Those who like it,no comment.
The food is nice though. But need to wait. Arghh.
Carrer fair is like normal,but nothing interest me sey. Too bad lah.

It's raining non-stop.
Put on my old shoes and old jacket.
Headed down to school as per normal.
Boarding the bus with this FATTY!
Really Irritating ok. There's like plenty of sits infront of him,die die he want to sit beside me! Ughh! That's fine with me,but then,he started to show his so-called his true colour. He go and dig his nose infront of me and I started to get disgusted already! WTH? And then,he started to sleep lah konon den as usual,moved his head and body towards me. And I like DAMN! My place is squeezy ok,you don't have to squeese me somemore! When his arms touches mine,I quickly hit his arm! Then looked at me with one kind and i just pretend nothing happened! Serve you right,mr! =)

Look,if you want to sleep,please maintain your body ok. Or just maintain your eyes not to sleep.=)

Ouh well,gtg. It's time for my dinner.

2008-11-11T20:40:00.003+08:00

19 doesn't make any different. People can call me old but what do I care? Nothing. Nothing at all. I'm forever young with my chiddish act. =) Macam malas nak jadi tua cepat-cepat like some young kids who wanna be OLD. YIKES.

Apart from that,how I wish I never see what I saw just now! You know,in class,while the teacher was teaching,I went to this particular friendster profile under my friends' list,and I really shocked how the same ahem falling in LOVE. Sesungguhnyer aku ingin mengucap dan mengucap dan terus mengucap. My body so weak that Sabby has to take the mouse to click on the next pictures. A BIG SIGH. I was so noisy when I saw that pictures. Who knows me better,you will know why. If not,get lost! ;) Kept laughing cause,mcm kelakar kan gitu. Hhehe.. Suke seyy linda part gini. ;) Haiz,whats going to happen. I really don't know. Only God knows.

Telling my darkside of my life is really a relieved.
How suffer I am during those pathetic time.
There's still grudge in me,in my heart.
Luckily there's my ite classmates and schoolmates.
I know myself a bit better. But slowly the confidence is up,but not fully like the others.
I'm a quiet,timid girl before but people changed so do I.
My parents noticed theres so much difference in me and I like it. =) Wohooo....

I want my laughing partner,can?
Laugh with no reasons like me! But hey,I'm not mad OK!
Do crazy moves and stuff is not mad! This is ART! LOL. Whatever.

This is the right feet and the left feet!
Sorightttt!
=)

2008-11-09T15:24:00.011+08:00

Heya. Thank you AK 47 for the lovely hand-made card. Not to forget the people who came for yesterday Quantum Of Solace. *A big hug from me to you people* =)
Quantum of Solace is a two-thumbs up movie! I don't mind watching that again. ;) Anyone?

While waiting for Sabby and AK.

At long john silver and hey,I was so suprised the tartar sauce need to pay huh? Ape seyy..

That's the people who came yesterday and AMRUL is the only guy and being bullied by the 4 of us. ;)

I know,my face tak perlu to be like that. =)

Thinking about someone?? Hmmm....

Aww,James Bond....

Later headed to Coffee Bean to just chill and relax before I decided to make a move first and left me alone to find the bus 190. I kept walking and walking and ended up I'm at raffles city. Chet! But that place quite familiar for me to find bus 190. ;) Reached home at 945pm. I think should stop going out at the moment. Saving in progress. =)

Thanks again.. My birthday this year is GREAT. =)

2008-11-07T21:38:00.005+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday to Me! ;)
I enjoyed today celebration.
I'm 19 and I still felt like i'm still 16 years old.
Honestly speaking,I did not enjoyed my teenagers life at all.
Those time in secondary school really a bad time for me.
People taking advantage on me just like that.
So,I just hope,my life gonna be great,fun and always be happy in the year ahead me. Insyaallah,god will panjangkan umurku. ;) AMIN

And and and, thank you for all the wishes from the friends and also the family.
From sms to friendster comments to face to face and through msn. ;) Appreciate it a lot ok..Thank you,for everything. The day is quite fine today. BANANA SPLIT ANYONE? ;) Thanks to my mom for the bday cake and dad for the satay and the food. =)
Presents? NAH. I don't demand presents like those people do. =) I appreciate them if they remember my bday.

See,how happy I am. I'm a spoilt brat just for today.
Can't wait for tml. 007 here we come. Aww man,should watch today. 7 is the date. ;)
TC.

2008-11-05T20:07:00.003+08:00

Ouh well started the day with my sleepy eyes.
Purposely woke up late just to make this lesson shorter.
What a luck,he's mad and dissappointed at our class.
Questioned the people one by one why we are late.[Must state the valid reasons sia]
Only half of our class came and 2/3 of the class came late.
My answer to his question is honest. He asked me why and I simply said,I woke up late and I do know our lesson starts at 8. With my so-whatever-face. ;)
He kept nag and nag with his mono tone. [Keep asking myself,is he angry or teaching?]
Hello? I don't care if you lived at east side or even at JB. What I care is, that lesson is such a BORE.... *yawns*
Prove? Everyone was sleeping when he continued to teach just now. OPPS!
I kept drawing and drawing. [My drawing suckz I know]
YipiyipiYayaa.

Lifeskill,acted out as a candidate. How an interview being done.
And seriously,I can't act out when there's camera there.
And I CANNOT ACT WHEN SABRINA IS INFRONT OF ME.
Reason? I cannot see her face because I kept laughing.
I got so many takes ok. HAHHAHA.
I'm not a good actress. HEHEHEE..
That's funny part lah.
And I want to laugh now ar. LOL. =)

Ok,I'm done.
Err,got to do my revision for my phase test tomorrow.

Byeo.

2008-11-04T20:46:00.003+08:00

Shouldn't post yesterday's incident.
Just for me and myself.
Those who have read,just keep numb.
Thank you for reading ok.

I'm sorry yeah.
I felt guilty after what happened today.
I shouldn't, you know talked about that thing. That sensitive things.
Hope everything gonna be alrite SOON.
I'm not in your shoes but I can do feel what you feel.
Once again I'm sorry. =(

How times flies.
Thursday our Phase Test.
Count how many weeks left before I really get out of Dover.
New experience. New desktop. New people.
Lastly,I'm going 19 soon.
EEE.. Tak sangka lah seyy. I'm too young to reach 19. ;)

Forever Young 2.

2008-11-02T20:06:00.009+08:00

Today,went to mom's old neighbour's wedding at Yew Tee Community Centre. Nothing special there,only the place quite cramp for us to walk about. The food,nice,the drinks nice and many more. ;)

The cousin and I.

Anw,yesterday was so much fun! Our initial plan was to watch The Coffin but cancelled our plan because we are going to watch Quantum of Solace! So next week,a date with the peeps again for James Bond. ;) Lunch over at lucky plaza was cancelled and next destination is at Bugis/Arab Street. Being the 1st person to arrive,I waited for Amrul,Sabby and Ak at Bugis station. Amrul arrived shortly after that and continue waiting for the two ladies. We both talked about something that bothering him and bla bla. With my Networking book on my hands,I felt like one nerd sia. =) Thanks to Amrul for not coming to school on Friday to give my book back. And also thanks to me,for not bringing big bag. Chet! Later,headed to Arab Street and have our late lunch there. Helmi and Azrun joined us. We made jokes at each other and I like to joke around with Amrullah! HEEHHE. Sowrie,if some jokes really hurts you. Waited for Azrun like waited for him to repair the road seyy. But since his one funny guy,I forgive him. LOL. Headed to Esplanade for pesta raya show,since Amrul's friends were there performing. We bumped into Mirza's and friends. To be exact the ex-doverian. HEHE. What a coincidence. We only get to watch for 730 pm show because of my curfew. ;) But I got msged my mom already hor. Overall,it's really enjoying show and Arm,you should dance like they do! ;) At 8pm plus,we went home and left Amrul alone with his friends. Reached home at 945pm.

I'm looking forward for next week outing. =) Sowrie,no camera and no pictures of us. =(

=)

Some video of yesterday performance. I want to grab some foods,take care people. I had a great time with these people. =)

2008-10-31T20:00:00.010+08:00

This song.....
Somehow relates to me....

I found this photos inside my album and I managed to post only this..
There's a lot and I'm gonna miss them,when we are graduating.
I miss the old me.
I was reading my previous post and I realised I was one happy girl before MAY 2008.
I kept complaining when I read after the MAY 2008 post.
I'm regret.
Shouldn't let guys sweet talk to me.
Isshhhkkkk. How regret I am!
I take this as lesson learnt for me.
She said,experienced it yourself rather than listen to other's experience.
This is a long journey for me.
I'm strong here.

Apart from that,
I need to gain weight like seriously.
Foods,here I come.
TGIF.
I can't wait for tml.
I can't wait for my birthday to come.
Hehehe. ;)

Nothing to update.
See you. =)

Gotta Go My Own Ways.

2008-10-31T08:17:00.002+08:00

I'm in class now,since I got nothing to do,I'll update this blog of mine. =)

I vomitted again this morning.
Now,I got slight headache and I force myself to come to school.
I don't know what's happening to me.
Ouh nevermind.

Anw,did I mentioned about my new hair cut?
Aha,I got my hair cut last Saturday.
It's pretty short and I'm loving it.
My girls missed my curly hair.
And I think,I miss it too,but the purpose for me to cut my hair is to let go everything that happen to me. Like one of them said,turn over the leaf? Yeah right, whatever he said. But somehow I think it's true.
Hair can be grow, right people? =)

The picture of you is still in my wallet.
To find you is easy but I tried to make it hard.
Just take care of my pics like I take care of yours.

2008-10-29T18:33:00.005+08:00

You've been tagged by SABBY.

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird
things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of
their own 10 weird things/habits/little known
facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people
to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back !

1)I love to twist my hair around when I got nothing better to do. [Since I'm a kid!]
2)Talking to myself when I'm upset/dissappointed.
3)Shy to eye contact with a guy whom I like/loved.[note the -ed]
4)I eat a little,but I get to kenyang fast.
5)Laugh at not-so-funny jokes. ;)
6)I cried when I laugh.
7)Watching peoples' behaviour from far.
8)I born at KK,lived at Tanglin Halt Rd for 6 years and live Jalan Teck Whye since I'm 7 and now I'm going 19. Count the years if u care. =)
9)I don't like being disturbed!
10)I like to disturb people tho. LOL. =)

You've been tag:
1)Kynz
2)Hafish
3)Shira
4)Nana
5)Hana
6)Mirza
7)Dila
8)Anyone who is interested.
9)Anyone who is interested.
10)Anyone who is interested.

Wait! I'm not done yet. I want to update seyy. Spear me a minute alrite. ;) Love you readers.

Advanced Networking is very interesting nowadays. Because get to play the real SWITCH although at first I'm lazy to use it. The commands is like router and the difference is that is router and this is switch. So,I'm sure you guys confused right? Right? Nevermind. Only the advanced networking people should know. ;)
Ouh well,I kept complaining to everyone that I just want to get out of Dover permises as fast as possible! Really. Lots memories were installed there and it's better for me to breathe in the fresh air and become the new Linda. No? Ok,the old selenger Linda. =) What's past is past,but I won't forget the impact. To think back,it's silllyyy for me to involve in this rship. I'm still young you see. I depends on my parents and I'm learning to do this and that. STOP! Don't want to talk about it.

Yesterday was fun and stupid! Fristly,we went to the canteen and play some riddles and jokes. We were laughing so loud when we didn't get the jokes. Went up to the class we played 'ChopCiliCho', cannot-laugh game,the ZA and read some stupid jokes on the email. Went down to the foyer and we played this game called hmm,I don't know. See,how stupid the game is. Supposed to be very Tuesday blues but ended up playing those stupid games. We were so sleepy and tired during the next lesson.

And today,it's an ok ok day ever. Siti NurSabrina please tell me that someone's name pleaseee... I really want to know.. If not,GOH,here he come for youu.. ;)
Lifeskill here and there. Not fair the ex-Nitec students get examted. Tak fair. =)
The class next door was so irritating and damn noisy like hell! Bang the door,laugh out loud like nobody bussiness and I got disturbed by those guys aka moron! Eww. Listen here,I won't wave back at moron ok. Especially,those irritating guys who think they are err cool? I want to vomit can? Just one irritating look and buat bodoh face will be just fine. Scared,I complained to Mdm Azaa... Like one kid sia. Ishh! Lets *hak dish* at them! Going back home,it's heaven... The girls know why esp Sabby. ;)

My birthday is coming soon and I need to get my own birthday present ever! Last year I bought my ZEN Stone plus,going 1 year soon. And this year,I decided to buy bags! Yeay! Bag for my birthday. Don't know what bag to buy. Maybe the bag that I always like or other? Hmm... Nevermind,I'm going shopping soon.... Anyone like to accompany me??? ;)

Lastly,I WANT TO WATCH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!! Can I watch with you. [I also don't know who is this you. HHAHAHHAH.]

Here I smile. But deep inside,only GOD knows my real feelings.....

2008-10-27T21:15:00.003+08:00

Looking into the mirror and I see the real me. And I realised that I'm not perfect for you.........

2008-10-26T15:47:00.003+08:00

This morning,I made this decision that I tried to avoid for a long time. Correct. After doing so much thinking for these past few days,I finally made a decision for myself. Better for me and for everyone. I've tried to be realistic but I just can't go on living in this secretive world and hiding myself all the way. Sign of realive and I'm sure about my decision. Putting all the old memories back into places and hide it somewhere I don't want to know. This 5 months have made me realised how hard life is. How hard making decision and how true the feeling of being loved and hurt. I've learnt that and I'm making it stop at the moment. The moment where I don't know when can be resume back. Maybe not now till I'm 23. I don't know. I really don't care about what other people think about me. I'm not perfect,you see.

The family has been great to me. Although they didn't show,I can sense that. Giving me advise and trying to protect me from anyone who going to hurt me. I finally realised,these family of mine wants the best from me. They want me to look really happy. They are the one who I can really rely on. THANK YOU.

I should get over it and move on. Finally,this decision come from my heart.
No more feelings of this and that.
No more heart thumping every seconds.
No more thinking about this and that.
No more waiting for calls and msges.
Everything is so past tense and back to square number 1.

13 more days..........

2008-10-24T20:24:00.004+08:00

Two visitors came to our class to visit us today.
We were warned to wear proper uniform yesterday and some still stubborn wearing jeansssss to school. Ended up they play hide-and-seek with the head of IT. Hehehee.
First visitor is our own very principal who speak like errr.... *TUT* And 2nd visitor came all the way from Vietnam. He's the vice Minister of Vietnam. Grammar looked funny wearing the tie. Before the minister came by,Sabby introduced us this weird blog who critised about the bapok. DAMN!! It's fucking disgusting and the guys were like,OUHHHHHMANN!!!! The guys are straight,thank god. =) One of them was like,mad guy seeing those bapok. Mengucap lah ye. ;) DAN,SESUNGGUHNYA AKU SANGAT BERDOSA MELIHAT GAMBAR-GAMBAR MEREKA! Hehehehe.. Sabby,next time introduce us to a cool2 blog,can? After reading[mostly seeing] the uncensored blog,we went to some Suria's artistes' blog. A wedding photo by NurulAini's blog. We were like,awwww. Bestnyeeee. We meant the background of the picture. ;) Really cool.

By,1145,finished class and everyone was like rushing to go home. Especially the guys,they went to friday prayers. Dyla went off early too. Left me,Sabby and Ak. Waited at the foyer doing nothing and after awhile,the SC members decided to eat and I decided not to join them. My initial plan was to go home straight,but since it's too early,I headed to VIVO alone. As soon as I enter the mall,I'm shivered in cold. Walked for awhile and looking for something I don't know what is it. Since it's cold and boring,decided to get out from the cold place. Took NEL and say bye2 to VIVO. I texted someone to accompany me eat but since tt someone didn't reply,I headed home straight and guess who I bumped into???? Really make my day. ;) I guess home is a best place to make myself peace and relax. Mommy's cooking is sedap and thank you MOMMY for accompany me eating just now. I love you MOMMY!!!! You know what's best and what's not for me. I really miss you,MOMMY!!!! :(

Something,I can't shared with anyone right now. Keeping it only to myself.

2008-10-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

Ouh GOD.... :(

I need guidence from you,god.
Protect me from any harm and trouble.
Allow me to live like normal people do.
Give me strength and hope.
Make me stand on my own feet.
Forgive all my wrong deeds towards you and the people.
Make me feel better when I'm sad.
Make me strong when I'm down.
I'm a girl with a small heart.
I'm a girl who needs to learn more.
God,forgive me............
I'm helpless girl.

Ouh God..... :(

2008-10-21T20:46:00.002+08:00

From the way I stand,
from the way I think,
from the way I act,
and from the way I see,
I couldn't see the real me just yet.
Maybe it was infront of me but I couldn't see that.

She told me to focus on my future before anything else.
I'll try. No. I will focus on my future willingly.
At the same time,I'm not going to let 2 hearts dissappointed. Maybe,it's 3.
Those precious hearts that I really care for.

17 days still counting down.
But I don't wish to count down for that day.
Let it come,day after day,hours after hours,minutes after minutes and seconds after seconds.
Let the day come by itself without me noticing.
Accepting the day as my day.
Put on that smiley face even if you are upset.
Wish wish and wish for the good even there's bad.
17 days,still counting down.

2008-10-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

Words can't tell the truth.
The truth hurts,I know.
But I don't need you to brag about my personal life.
Telling her about my personal stories.
I know you care,but that doesn't mean you can use your fugly words at me and saying something bad about my personal life.
I'm totally dissappointed with you tonight.
I can be stupid at times.
I can be a fool listening to my own heart instead of using my brains.
But you don't have to look me down.
Look yourself in the mirror and see what's your flaws.
Don't blame others if you are being blamed for your attitude.
You don't have to learn from the other's fault if you have your own principle.
I guess,your own mindset is much better that mine as well as theothers.
I've noticed you and your true colours will be seen one day by the others.
Critised people as you wish,looking down at people as you please. Judging people as you can.
Why? Because this what I see from YOU.
Just watch out what you've been talking about, cause,you don't know whats gonna happen ahead of you.
Reminder from me to you,KARMA do exist.

-Love,Linda-

2008-10-18T12:08:00.002+08:00

Sowrie for the lack of updates..... AGAIN. Sowrie.

I'm down with high fever,sore throat and also flu like AGAIN!
Maybe because of the wheather or maybe because of lack of rest.
So yesterday,I forced myself to go to school eventho it's really hard for me to get up from the bed. My head spinning and while in the bathroom I vomit. No appetite to eat. And the reason for me to go to school,because of the attendance. The teacher is rushing here and there. Need to finish all the module before 13 dec. WTF?

School is no fun for me anymore because of this stupid rushing thingy. ADN,rushing. Lifeskill module also rushing. Hello? We are not robot lah for goodness sake. Long hours making me sick.

Today,I feel a bit better. Although the heat from my body is quite high,I managed to do the house work. Hopefully by Monday,I'll be ok yeah.

For those who noticed,I'm sowrie if I've been quiet since the school reopen. I'm really tired and sleepy for these past few days.

Alrite people,gtg. See you around. =)

2008-10-14T19:58:00.002+08:00

School just started yesterday and the new timetable is really a torture for me. We will start from 8am till 5/6pm almost everyday. Except for Monday and Friday. Kalahkan orang berkerje la.. Mak oii. So,basically we have only 9 weeks left before our attachment started on January next year. We are the last batch of IT student to go to the attachment. Which means,this is gonna my last 3 months in Dover. No,we will not coming back to Dover untill Graduation Day. =) How lucky we are.

I'm in a mood of Hari Raya still. But tak semeriah lah eh. Haiyoo.. Ouh,mom's cooking is delicious. Yum yum. Yesterday and today,I ate straight after school. It's random,I know.

Ouh well,go to go now. I want to do the online test and also get myslef some rest before tomorrow starts. TC.

2008-10-10T16:41:00.024+08:00

Hello people! It's time for a proper update of my Hari Raya outing with family members. =)

It's 2nd day of hari raya. The family went to our aunt's house over at clementi and my sis's fiance's house and also my uncle's house over at Telok Blangah. ;) The uncle decided to follow us to another house by pick-up. Just a simple raya outing. =)

My dad's side dearest cousin. =)

It's our family portrait! =) It's on the 5th day of Hari Raya.

Siblings Love.

On the way to mom's side house. From Tampinese to Jurung West. ;)

On the 6th day. =)

Went to my dad's side. We have no choice but to go at night with my sleepy eyes.

There's still more for me to update. Yesterday jalan raya with friends was great one although this year we took public transport instead of the van. Seriously speaking,my legs having a blister and hurts so much wearing those heels. We start from the northside and ends at the westside. From Bishan to Jurung West.

At my house.

It's only 8pm and i'm so sleepy.

At julia's house. She's lucky cause her house was last and we have to go back on our own.Since everyone is getting tired,we took a cab from Julia's house. I reached home at 11pm.

2008-10-06T15:17:00.006+08:00

This post is not fully update. Just random. =)

First day of Hari Raya,as usual,stayed at home for the guest to come. Maternal side as well as paternal side. As mom is the oldest among all the unlces and aunties and we don't have any grandparents to visit,they came to my house first day of hari raya. So chaotic. ;)

Will update more on hari Raya Outing. This year,we wore brown.

And and and I can't wait for the jalan raya with the peeps this week. ;)