I can't believe that I'm alone here at home. Everyone went out with their own agenda. Me? I'm stuck all alone,feeling a little bit lonely here. I'm bored and only non-living things are accompany me right now. Thank you non-living things.

I was checking my friendster profile when there's this guy who he added me few days back sent me this comment saying that he saw me when he's working at CCK MRT. I was like woah,no one ever recognised me before and he managed to recognise me? Haha. I think he's seeing the wrong person. But it's not a big deal or something. And and and,there's this guy gave me friendster msg and thought that I'm a teacher. WTH wrong with him? Just because of my appearence,he tot that I'm a teacher. I told him that,it's so impossible of me becoming a teacher. Hehehe. Macam-macam.

I found this,at her cd. The pictures were like 6 months old,I guess.






















Sometimes I think,where's my real privacy?
Can't I have a little more space for me to do my own thing?
My phone,my desk and it's in my room.
Why,can't you respect my privacy?
Did I enter your privacy before?
I should not say no moreee.

I want you but...........

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed (showed)?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone (alone)
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today- Kelly Clarkson[Walk Away].


Don't take things for granted.
I hate wars and I hate when they killed one of our people.
Innocent people died just like that and left those terrorist survive with bad intentions.
Why creating war and involve those who are innocent?
Where are all the people who are responsible?
Just wish those who were captured by them,go home safely.
GOD,help those people.

After Sunday,2 weeks left.

While I blog,I listen to different types of songs. Reading the lyrics and when the song is not good,I'll change to another one. Obviously,Linda had nothing to do at this moment.

I guess my life right now is not as cheerful as it was. No more interesting stories to share. My life now is as plain as a sheet of paper. It's empty and white and it's boring. Just waiting for the right time to find my real happiness. Right now,I'm trying my very best to be happy and be who I am. The real me. But sometimes,my heart beats very fast like as if something is missing somewhere. But I put my wide smile on my face just to ignore the beating of my heart. Why? I,myself also don't know what's happening. I'm so envy looking at the other's. Their life are so perfect that they can do whatever they want. Left and right,people looking at them and praising them like one prince and princess. Why,their life is so perrfect? Haiz. Goodluck is on their side I think.

I remember,there's one fellow,who sent me this birthday msg saying that,"Don't let people bring you down and always believe in yourself......"[well something like that] By reading the sms-ed,I was so touched and glad.
After what happened,I think there's no need for this fellow to send this msg if this fellow always brings me down.
Should I believe in whatever people said?
Should I let people bring me down easily?
=(

I need my own rainbow......

Ahhhh!! Like finally I can switch on my brother's computer and updatee. *phew* Ok,let's not waste time.

First and foremost,Happy 19th birtdhay Amrullah. =)



Today,it's class photo taking session and the girls were wearing white except for Sabby. Preety cool and I'm so excited! Not only me,but the girls and boys too. Ayid brought some green-colour-gel and styled the rest of the boys's hair. After a few minutes,their hair turned green colour and off they went for the photo-taking. Ahem,kalahkan orng perempuan bersolek. =) Lalalala.

And as for SnW,thought of playing soccer but changed plan and ended up we played batminton. Divided into 3 groups and have a mini competition between us. Later part of the game,get irritated by the boys who were playing sepak takraw and volleyball. Volleyball inside the hall? Bikin kelakar ke ape,nie budak2? Plus,STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING BIG MORONS! Thank you. Before that,I got hit by this takraw ball on my back. Ah Ouch! I think I need to practise more on my batminton skills. Especially,the serving part. I'm crap ok. Heh. Continue to play till 3 to 4 and went down to the canteen to rest before going home. Mind you,I reached home and straight away eat my mommy's cooking. =)

As for Tuesday and Wednesday,I did not know how to put them in WORDS.
One word,SIGH!

BUT! I think I Know WHO.....

"I missed those beautiful days....."


What's Yours Is Yours-J

Post number 2 of the day.

SnW is great for today,becasue I get to play the badminton and also running on the treadmill. =) I managed to run like for 1km only. As usual,my stamina low and whenever I run,I'll tend to walk. It's all in the mind. And now,my body aching,aching and aching. My muscles is aching too. Amrul,let's run again this Thursday! Kiter challenge k. Hehhehe. =) How I wish I can run at the track. Like real only, Linda. But,I think I should excersise more. I want to do sauna,can?

And I can't wait for this Thursday baby. At 11am. Cool sia. =)
So many things are kept inside my brain. So many things to do so little time.
Before holiday,need to hand in video,storyboard,bussiness plan/template,case study and argh,why so many things? *slap forehead*
But it's ok,I really need to get really busy from now onwards and I don't want to think about something that can make me go crazy/mad. Aku pasrah.

After this,holiday started and after holiday,it's my attachment. I think that's cool enough for me and for soem people there. Taking me for granted and I'm getting busy,mind you. No time for this and that.That people mesti suke. BAH! Whateverr.

Since amrul don't like the song by KATY PERRY,btw,katy perry is not HOT and is not SEXY at ALL. Those who say she's hot,MAKE SURE YOU GO AND GIVE YOUR EYE A CHECKUP! Becasue YOU ARE DEADLY BLIND! Once again,KATY PERRY IS NOT HOT n SEXY! Blueek. Err ok,back to the song,I think I would like to change my song. Amrul please don't complain ok. ;)

Aching please go away! =(

It's school day today and I just hope this week will be my wonderful week with the people. Unlike the week before. Trying hard to forget what happen.

Ouh shoosh,my other computer died on me since the last two days. Very bad compuiter and I think there's no need to repair. Mom,dad,let's just throw the computer. Ouuh wait,all my pics should be delete first. Hayoo..

Ok.I think I should get ready for school. ;)

Don't challenge me to make stupid decision.
To you,be careful what you wish for!

Happy legal 18th Birthday,Julia Farhana. =)
Like finally,she's legal already. ;)

Hello,hello! =) I changed the music and it's for YOU! ;)

Let's just pretend nothing happen for today alrite. ;)
Today,most of my click didn't come for the lesson. Dyla,sicked. Sabby and Ak,having SC and received sms from Amrul saying that he woke up late. As usual. =) So left only Raidah and Julia doing our 'work'. I know,we know huh. =) But I did some work ok. Since,that people like to make my mood down and stuff and blah blah blah,Raidah,Julia and I headed down to VivoCity to have our lunch there. And for the first time Raidah went with us. Cool huh. Amalkan selalu ye,raidah. Hehe. Window shopped at Best Denki,looking for laptops,Mp3/4,Earphone,games and I loved the trial for the racing game using steering wheel! I can be a good racer right? =) Then,left Me and Julia alone and went back to J.E. Bought bubble tea because we havent drink since we ate. Hehe. So,we sat at this place and chat2 bout an hour and finally home sweet home. =) I say best,can?



So,yesterday, freaking FIRE DRILL day AGAIN. As usual,when come to fire drill,the IT department is the most attitude department ever esp the 2nd year students. So,pampered that they can't even step on the muddy field. So,IT2N,as usual,sat down and took pic before we went up for shades. Damn hot ok. Look at the pic above and see our eyes. ;)

In class yesterday. Nothing to do,took many pics with my bubble gum. =)











I gained weight i guess. Haha. Ouh btw, yesterday double chocolate cum ghost story telling is great. Hehe.. AK,jng takut ok. ;)

Alright,fella,need to study for tml practical assignment. Bubbye. ;)



I thought I'm all alone when the sun is setting down,but no, there's always them who will shine the light on my face. Make it brighter and brighter each day. And to you,WHATEVERRR. =)

Life is really unfair.
Unfortunately,that's what life is.
We got no choice, but to face it.
Running from a problem cannot solve everything.
By running,it involves another people. It hurts,really hurts.
However,that particular someone who is involve should stay strong and not dwell on the problems. Instead,looking at the bright side and stay positive all the time. Only,those who are really giving up,can run from the problems without thinking about people around them.
Angry,sad,dissappointed,hurt and regret is all inside the box of that someone's feelings. The feelings which can't be describe any further.
Every problems has their own solutions. Pick the best solution and everything gonna be fine.
That someone is trying to understand but that person is hiding and hiding and hiding. No sharing and no talking. Hiding is really bad solution and that person cannot be hiding for so long.
No harm sharing.
No harm talk things out.
Just remember,running or hiding from the problems cannot let you go anywhere. Think about it,that person. =(

Life is really unfair.

So,yesterday went to airport with mom just to send my aunt and uncle for Haj. We arrived quite early and headed down to the staff canteen to have our late lunch there. By 5 plus,went up to the departure floor and looked for them. So many people and kind of kecoh and I hate the chaotic environment. =( Bumped into her again yesterday. =)

When they are about to go,I just remembered how sad my feelings were when both my parents went to Haj 2 years ago. Before they go in for check in,I kept hugging them and tears of sadness rolling down my cheecks. Both my parents never left me before and that time I'm done for my O levels paper and my dream to find a job was cancelled because I need to take care of the house and my sibling's foods as well. Look,I was just 17 that time and my mom have prepared the recipe for me to cook. Do the laundry and cleaned the house. While they were busy working/schooling,I do the household chores. I'm aloned! Only my computer kept me company. ;) But,I can't leave without my parents around. Ouh,how time flies huh. 2 years has gone and I still remember that till now.



Do we look alike? =)



Such a boring Sunday eventho it is suppose to be my happy day. Boring boring boring.
I'm bored. But today,majlis orang kahwin dibawah block saya dan saya dapati ramai artis yng datang ke majlis itu. Coolness.=) The songs somehow bring my moods up. Chill babe. =)

Ouh ya,5 goals for ManUnited. Good Job! =)

Hello! I just HATE that east side college.
I don't know why,but it's just not my type.
My opinion only. Those who like it,no comment.
The food is nice though. But need to wait. Arghh.
Carrer fair is like normal,but nothing interest me sey. Too bad lah.

It's raining non-stop.
Put on my old shoes and old jacket.
Headed down to school as per normal.
Boarding the bus with this FATTY!
Really Irritating ok. There's like plenty of sits infront of him,die die he want to sit beside me! Ughh! That's fine with me,but then,he started to show his so-called his true colour. He go and dig his nose infront of me and I started to get disgusted already! WTH? And then,he started to sleep lah konon den as usual,moved his head and body towards me. And I like DAMN! My place is squeezy ok,you don't have to squeese me somemore! When his arms touches mine,I quickly hit his arm! Then looked at me with one kind and i just pretend nothing happened! Serve you right,mr! =)

Look,if you want to sleep,please maintain your body ok. Or just maintain your eyes not to sleep.=)

Ouh well,gtg. It's time for my dinner.

19 doesn't make any different. People can call me old but what do I care? Nothing. Nothing at all. I'm forever young with my chiddish act. =) Macam malas nak jadi tua cepat-cepat like some young kids who wanna be OLD. YIKES.

Apart from that,how I wish I never see what I saw just now! You know,in class,while the teacher was teaching,I went to this particular friendster profile under my friends' list,and I really shocked how the same ahem falling in LOVE. Sesungguhnyer aku ingin mengucap dan mengucap dan terus mengucap. My body so weak that Sabby has to take the mouse to click on the next pictures. A BIG SIGH. I was so noisy when I saw that pictures. Who knows me better,you will know why. If not,get lost! ;) Kept laughing cause,mcm kelakar kan gitu. Hhehe.. Suke seyy linda part gini. ;) Haiz,whats going to happen. I really don't know. Only God knows.

Telling my darkside of my life is really a relieved.
How suffer I am during those pathetic time.
There's still grudge in me,in my heart.
Luckily there's my ite classmates and schoolmates.
I know myself a bit better. But slowly the confidence is up,but not fully like the others.
I'm a quiet,timid girl before but people changed so do I.
My parents noticed theres so much difference in me and I like it. =) Wohooo....

I want my laughing partner,can?
Laugh with no reasons like me! But hey,I'm not mad OK!
Do crazy moves and stuff is not mad! This is ART! LOL. Whatever.

This is the right feet and the left feet!
Sorightttt!
=)

Heya. Thank you AK 47 for the lovely hand-made card. Not to forget the people who came for yesterday Quantum Of Solace. *A big hug from me to you people* =)
Quantum of Solace is a two-thumbs up movie! I don't mind watching that again. ;) Anyone?





While waiting for Sabby and AK.







At long john silver and hey,I was so suprised the tartar sauce need to pay huh? Ape seyy..





That's the people who came yesterday and AMRUL is the only guy and being bullied by the 4 of us. ;)



I know,my face tak perlu to be like that. =)





Thinking about someone?? Hmmm....







Aww,James Bond....

Later headed to Coffee Bean to just chill and relax before I decided to make a move first and left me alone to find the bus 190. I kept walking and walking and ended up I'm at raffles city. Chet! But that place quite familiar for me to find bus 190. ;) Reached home at 945pm. I think should stop going out at the moment. Saving in progress. =)



Thanks again.. My birthday this year is GREAT. =)

Happy 19th Birthday to Me! ;)
I enjoyed today celebration.
I'm 19 and I still felt like i'm still 16 years old.
Honestly speaking,I did not enjoyed my teenagers life at all.
Those time in secondary school really a bad time for me.
People taking advantage on me just like that.
So,I just hope,my life gonna be great,fun and always be happy in the year ahead me. Insyaallah,god will panjangkan umurku. ;) AMIN



And and and, thank you for all the wishes from the friends and also the family.
From sms to friendster comments to face to face and through msn. ;) Appreciate it a lot ok..Thank you,for everything. The day is quite fine today. BANANA SPLIT ANYONE? ;) Thanks to my mom for the bday cake and dad for the satay and the food. =)
Presents? NAH. I don't demand presents like those people do. =) I appreciate them if they remember my bday.



See,how happy I am. I'm a spoilt brat just for today.
Can't wait for tml. 007 here we come. Aww man,should watch today. 7 is the date. ;)
TC.

Ouh well started the day with my sleepy eyes.
Purposely woke up late just to make this lesson shorter.
What a luck,he's mad and dissappointed at our class.
Questioned the people one by one why we are late.[Must state the valid reasons sia]
Only half of our class came and 2/3 of the class came late.
My answer to his question is honest. He asked me why and I simply said,I woke up late and I do know our lesson starts at 8. With my so-whatever-face. ;)
He kept nag and nag with his mono tone. [Keep asking myself,is he angry or teaching?]
Hello? I don't care if you lived at east side or even at JB. What I care is, that lesson is such a BORE.... *yawns*
Prove? Everyone was sleeping when he continued to teach just now. OPPS!
I kept drawing and drawing. [My drawing suckz I know]
YipiyipiYayaa.

Lifeskill,acted out as a candidate. How an interview being done.
And seriously,I can't act out when there's camera there.
And I CANNOT ACT WHEN SABRINA IS INFRONT OF ME.
Reason? I cannot see her face because I kept laughing.
I got so many takes ok. HAHHAHA.
I'm not a good actress. HEHEHEE..
That's funny part lah.
And I want to laugh now ar. LOL. =)

Ok,I'm done.
Err,got to do my revision for my phase test tomorrow.

Byeo.

Shouldn't post yesterday's incident.
Just for me and myself.
Those who have read,just keep numb.
Thank you for reading ok.

I'm sorry yeah.
I felt guilty after what happened today.
I shouldn't, you know talked about that thing. That sensitive things.
Hope everything gonna be alrite SOON.
I'm not in your shoes but I can do feel what you feel.
Once again I'm sorry. =(

How times flies.
Thursday our Phase Test.
Count how many weeks left before I really get out of Dover.
New experience. New desktop. New people.
Lastly,I'm going 19 soon.
EEE.. Tak sangka lah seyy. I'm too young to reach 19. ;)

Forever Young 2.

Today,went to mom's old neighbour's wedding at Yew Tee Community Centre. Nothing special there,only the place quite cramp for us to walk about. The food,nice,the drinks nice and many more. ;)



The cousin and I.

Anw,yesterday was so much fun! Our initial plan was to watch The Coffin but cancelled our plan because we are going to watch Quantum of Solace! So next week,a date with the peeps again for James Bond. ;) Lunch over at lucky plaza was cancelled and next destination is at Bugis/Arab Street. Being the 1st person to arrive,I waited for Amrul,Sabby and Ak at Bugis station. Amrul arrived shortly after that and continue waiting for the two ladies. We both talked about something that bothering him and bla bla. With my Networking book on my hands,I felt like one nerd sia. =) Thanks to Amrul for not coming to school on Friday to give my book back. And also thanks to me,for not bringing big bag. Chet! Later,headed to Arab Street and have our late lunch there. Helmi and Azrun joined us. We made jokes at each other and I like to joke around with Amrullah! HEEHHE. Sowrie,if some jokes really hurts you. Waited for Azrun like waited for him to repair the road seyy. But since his one funny guy,I forgive him. LOL. Headed to Esplanade for pesta raya show,since Amrul's friends were there performing. We bumped into Mirza's and friends. To be exact the ex-doverian. HEHE. What a coincidence. We only get to watch for 730 pm show because of my curfew. ;) But I got msged my mom already hor. Overall,it's really enjoying show and Arm,you should dance like they do! ;) At 8pm plus,we went home and left Amrul alone with his friends. Reached home at 945pm.

I'm looking forward for next week outing. =) Sowrie,no camera and no pictures of us. =(















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Some video of yesterday performance. I want to grab some foods,take care people. I had a great time with these people. =)