Today mark the last day of 2008. Tomorrow will be the start of a brand new day and year. We will be turning a year older and as for my batch of 1989,the big number 20 will hitting us soon. There will be no more number 1 infront. The number change as well as our behaviour. Our teenage years gonna end soon and it's time to see the real world. As for me,a brand new life for me. I think about it and if I got the chance to got to Poly,I'll just go and learn more. If not,I'll just make money by working. It's time to think about myself and my future. Those minor things,I'll just put one side and let it burn on it's own. It's easy for me.

My resolutions,lets just keep it as a secret. Maybe,if I make the resolutions,some of it I won't follow. By speaking,it's not enough. I'm going to miss all my buddies from my school especially my classmates. Those who really clicked to me. I remember my 1st friends in ITE. I met these 2 girls outside the classroom where I suddenly make them think I'm a gangster. Hehe. Siti NurSabrina and Nur Fadhilah. 1st day of school went to Vivo and have our lunch there. LJS! See,I remember. Hehehe. After a while,days by days and months and months,we clicked with the rest of the people including,Julia and Raidah. The more the merrier till now. Gonna miss you guys.

Well,I just hope 2009 will be a great year with colourful memories,meeting new friends or meet new crush.. Hehehehe. I'm kidding like duhh.. Just see how,2009 gonna be look like. =)

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1...............HAPPY NEW YEAR,BABES AND DUDES!

I'm jealous cause my sister get to go to Escape Theme Park tomorrow. =(

You will never be by my side. Crap!

It's Monday and how was your weekends? I had a great weekend cause Saturday I get to go out with the brother and his gf. He asked me to accompany him to Bugis to shop for jeans and I,windowed-shopped. =) If can,I would like to go out every single day cause,I felt bored not at home but at myself. Window-shopped therapy can make me relax a bit. ;)







Next stop,Suntec City. Sales everywhere and everyone is in the Christmas mood. Shop till they drop. One dress,one adidas bag,one sandals caught my eyes. Felt like buying the dress but.... I don't have the kaching! So yeah,window shopped again. Pss,it's my first time going to Suntec City plus the Fountain of wealth. ;)













So,2008 gonna leaving us soon and I think we all gonna miss those days together.
2008 is great but not as great as 2007. 2008 is the year where I 1st watch soccer until now. Where I 1st getting attached. 2008 is the year where my friends lectured me a lot. For good of course. Without them,I'm nothing. 2008,where I found my real heart,how it broken into many pieces,how I handled it and how I glued the broken pieces of my heart. Difficult yet it's life afterall. 2008 where I get to know a lot of people. New friends,new classmates. So,what's gonna 2009 gonna be like? Is it the same as 2008? Is it time to change? What's your resolutions? 2 more days to 1/1/2009! Hope it gonna be useful years with so many happy faces. =) It's time to focus on future and not anything else. Cheers. ;)



31/12/2008,fireworks at Marina Bay. ;)
Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru 1430. =)

Endure and Tolerate..... But How Long?

We all here with you.
Stay strong and always remember that GOD will always hear your/our prayers.
Condolences to your family.
May he rest in peace. Amin.

I don't know when is my turn to go......

Happy 26th Birthday To Beloved Sister,Nur Hida! =) May your dreams come true.



Shopping for shoes yesterday with the sister and the cousin. It's only Monday and lots of people mostly them,shop for Christmas Day. Actually,I don't like to go for shopping,but since I need some retail therapy,I'll just go and grab those shoes. Nice and I loved it! I got myself 2 pairs of shoes. Thanks for a a pair of shoe sister. =) Window-shopped for clothes and that dress is nice! Need to save up some cash.









While walking around,saw many familiars faces mostly Doverian people and one of them is Amrul. Plaza Singapura is our last place to go before we say bye bye to the cousin. I don't know when we can meet again and bitch about people. ;)
To you,I'm sorry for cancelling our movie date yesterday.

To believe or not to belive,I leave it to GOD.....

Alhamdulilah. I got a job at that company and will start my attachment on the 5th of January. Alhamdulilah. =)

And congrats to Manchester United for becoming the Champion of the FIFA CLUB WORLD CLUB! Thanks to Wayne Rooney for scorring the goal at 73 mins. =) ManU will always be the champion. Get it? =)

I miss my friends. I miss myself.

Changed the layout into something plain. Getting tired of the previous design and yeah,tada new layout for checkitout-gerl. ;) There's one person asked me to close down this blog of mine and create new url and I think that's troublesome. I promised myself that I won't close down my checkitout-gerl without valid reasons. Wait till I die,then I'll give you the password to shutdown my blog. I've been using this blog for 2 years 7 month and I won't simply shut just like that. Thanks to Shakina. ;) No matter what happen,noone can make me shutting down this blog of mine. Thank You. It's easy,if you don't like my blog,you can simply say SAYONARA. Thank You.

How do you handle your problems? What do you do,if you don't have anyone to talk to? Well,as for me,when I'll talk to myself before I go to sleep. Talk to myself like as if you're talking to someone. Maybe other's find it funny or insane but that's my habit since I'm a kid. Talking infront of the mirror is the best because you can see your own reflection. I really don't care what people think about me anymore cause this is real me. As long as I didn't bother other people's life,that's fine,right? That's how I handle my probs. But certain problems,I need to hear from other people's opinion too. ;)

Ouh,I think I really need to makan a lot. I'm losing weight and I felt so weak. My appetite is currently down and I should eat more fats to gain my fats back! Ugh!

Anw,did I mention to you that I've got my new pet? ;) Hehe. Since I hate real animals as my pet,I created this cute pet of mine in FaceBook. Her name is Balin. Say hello to Balin... ;) Ok,that's about it cause I want to play with my Balin later on. SAYONARA. =)




Searching for my happiness.....

I shall give Twilight a missed.
Sad. But it's ok. I rather wait for the DVD then to waste money.
Hmmmmm....

Still waiting for the call.
Patiently waiting. Days by days.

I'm bored. Holiday is very boring and I thought it was fun but turn out to be boring! I want to go for a real holiday. Overseas! Shopping,sightseeing and many2 more.I missed my holiday at overseas. =(

I want to watch fireworks with you again.........

There's no point for me to dwell so much of what happened to me recently. Because,there's other people who is really suffer than me. For me,my problems is too little that it can forget just like that. Hokey! I'll try and look on the brighter side of me and breathe in the cool/fresh air outside. There's no need for me to sad like someone's dead. 'Cause,I'm alive so do my family and my friends. ;) Thank you,folks for being there when I truly needed you all by my side. I won't forget that,because you people made my day! *kiss kiss hugs hugs you many2*

So,yesterday,went for an interview at this company,everyone including me wears smartly for this interview. Met the friends at jurung east interchange and off we went for the interview. We were so nervous upon reaching at the company. Seriously,it's my first time going for an interview and luckily there's them who can really ease my tension. Before we went for the interview,we were asked to do some 'class' test first and to my suprised,it's all about what we studied in school. We ended up asking each other for the answers as usual...... At 4 plus,the interview started and I answered his questions hmm,averagely and a bit confident. Well,I just hope I can get to work at this company. =)





After our interview,head to Lucky Plaza for our dinner with Sabby and Arm. We apologised for the waiting. We didn't expect out interview to finish later. Sorry to you people. Ayam Penyet is good but still the sambal belacan is damn spicy and I think Soda Gembira is not a very good combination drinks to drink for cannot-tahan-pedas people like me! But,I did finished the food yeah. =) We later walk around the town area and it's a beautiful night with Christmas lights on the streets and people everywhere taking pictures with the Christmas trees. What a beautiful night although it's wet day. Walked till Plaza Singapura and chill at Starbucks with not very good view. Boring but since we 3 girls brought our camera along,we camwhore like crazy people! =)































We laughed the loudest can? Because we are born to be funny people with no problems at all. Hahaa. Ya right! And I loved these bunch of people lah. Once we quiet but when one bully each other,they can be wild! Exclude me ok. Hehhehehe. Anw,reached home at 1030pm and I know dad is not pleased with me coming back home at night. And I love hanging out at night can? Peaceful! ;)

I'm not seeing noone but myself.

She's know me better. She's makes me feel safe. She's the one who I need most right now. 'Cause I'm sad terribly. I cried like a baby the moment I'm alone. I don't know who I want to tell this to. Everything happened so fast and my I'm down with cold fever. I don't know what to do and all I do is to cry loudly in my room. How I wish she knows my problems and comfort me? :(

In just a blink of an eyes,people can change their mind so fast. Left me hanging all alone. Left me questioning what did I do wrong? Left me without good valid reasons. I'm regret really really regret for knowing you since March 2008. Sometimes,this is just a test from the GOD,to see my ability of being patience and strong. I need guidence from you,GOD. But,I need someone who can guide me,makes me happy,loves me sincerly,protect me,listens to my problems,heal my sickness and lent me his shoudler for me to cry on. Accept the way I am. Not forcing yourself to love me. I thought I found it,but he's not the one I'm looking for. He's just messing around with my heart and my mind. I pray to GOD,that I will never see his face again,not in school or anywhere else. Making me proud of myself for being myself.

And for now,my heart is lock for you............

This week. Hectic week! Where,we need to finish up our projects and test after test.
Our head spinned when come to advanced networking phase test. Everything was over and the 'reward' I received is,I'm down with slight fever. My throat pain and everything is so painful. Heartpain. Headache. Plus,my eyes pain. Shit!

And for the first time,I shouted at GOH! For being so lame and being so boring teacher ever? Call,1 time,2 time but ignored me. Once I shout,then 1 to come. Deaf or what? Argh!

So what's the plan for holiday? Hmm,I don't know. Book a date and let's go out and let out all the stressful week we had!
Seriously,I need to go shopping for new shoes. ;) Shopping anyone? Hehehehe.

This coming Monday,interview at this company and this is stressful. Ayoyoyoyo.
On my way home,I saw him again and I can't believe it's him who I bump into. Thanks for the towel plus the about-to-give-me-tissue. At least there's someone who can cheered me up. *huggies....Not* I paisey can?

Last but not least, GOODBYE DOVER and THE PEOPLE who BORES ME like HELL! =)
I did not enjoy every moment of my life there. 2008 sucks[but I still love my classmate] and I still love the bonding of 2007. 2007,year which I always kene scolding by my mom and dad. I love it! ;) This year,hmm,she didn't scold at all. She will ask why? Alhamdullilah,I think she understands already. Hehhee. Naughty Linda. =) Can I be naughty like 2007?

I still remember these days.
It opened my eyes to see the real world.
=)
Happy Holiday.

Vomitted again this morning.
My head is spining around as usual and now my body feel so warm. Having a slight fever and I promise myself that I will swallow that panadol.
Mom asked me to go for a check-up and maybe I'll go during one of the days.

School is getting boring and boring.
But,lucky we are the lucky one.
2 more days and i'm so looking foward to my attachment after holiday.
I just receieved my company yesterday and we need to come for interview this Friday.
How? I never been to job interview before? What to say eh?
Just be myself. =)
Plus what should I wear??
Hehehe... ;)
People in school are also,getting boring and boring, I'm so tired to be in that environment! Except for my classmates and the people who I really know.
Seriously,I wanna out from DOVER,can?

And I think Edward Cullen is cuteeee! ;)



I dreamt about this beautiful place and it makes me feel so peaceful.......

My mood is not good today. People around me making me pissed off just like that.
Although today supposed to be my happy day,but I get pissed with their attitude! Just don't want to waste time typing down what happened just now. Seriously,I'm pissed and I cried for a while today. Early morning and it's really annoying.

How do you feel when both ur parents said that you are STUPID just in one day and on the same time??

Down with fever yesterday. My head hurts and still hurts.

Anw,Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha!


No more shoulder to cry on.......

My headache is killing me right now.
How I wish I chop my head and let me rest in peace.
This is killing me.
Seriously.

So many things to do,so little time.
Test and project dateline and blah blah.
Problems here and there.
Personal problems is one thing.
Let me rest. Let me rest. Let me rest.

I remember when my heart broke.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
My heart couldn't take no more of you.
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when I walked out.
I remember when I said I hated you.
But somehow deep inside still loving you.
Sad and lonely.

Miss Independent.
Can I?
I'm shutting myself from relationship for now. [insyaallah]
'Cause,I'm tired. Really really tired.
It's killing me when I'm too exhausted.
For once,let me be the one who is selfish.
Let me rest.
Give me some space,cause I can't breathe properly now.
Let me,please.....

There's no need for me to cry now.....

I'm cold.

Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah.
Everything is over like FINALLY. Alhamdulilah.
What I planned to say,is already being said.
I had enough of this and this is it,I'm finally free like a bird.
Forget what happened and move on with my life.
My life is interesting before this and I missed it so much.
After this,I need to spend more time with family and friends because,they come first before anything else.
It's for my own good and I should be more positive.
I love myself. No one understand me better other than myself.
Thus,I shall not typed what happened just now anymore,cause,I've already end my love story here.........

Alhamdulilah. =)

I'm in the middle of study mode and my heart and my brain are 'heavy' to continue.
DBP test is tomorrow and I've just writing down some notes on my paper. Before I cry while I study,let me just type out something here.

I can be strong when,they are here beside me.
But when I'm alone,something is always in my mind,thinking and thinking and 'this' thing come out but I ignored it.
Everyone have their own stories to share but as for me,I kept my mouth shut. To recall what happened,it's painful.
Once,I hold back my tears,but today,I let the tears rolling down my cheeks as soon I stared 'at the back'.
What I said to her yesterday,was somehow true but deep inside my heart,there's this 'thing' loitering around in my heart.
One of my old fren said,"you was strong enough for this,how come it turn out to be like this?"
Just so you know,I'm weak when it involve my heart.
So,should I say I lost or should I say I've win the battle?
I'm still wise enough to think what's good and what's bad for me.
But..... Why? Why I ended up being like one kid,who need to be taught?
I'm dissappointed and I regret.
Can I hold on to the pole this time round??

I'm half-hearted.
Should I follow one of my heart or should I follow the other one?

I lose my concentration on my studies and I just can't be bother for my test tomorrow.
I'm losing myself.
Let's just ctrl + C tml.

I Live In A Lonely Road........