This song.....
Somehow relates to me....

















I found this photos inside my album and I managed to post only this..
There's a lot and I'm gonna miss them,when we are graduating.
I miss the old me.
I was reading my previous post and I realised I was one happy girl before MAY 2008.
I kept complaining when I read after the MAY 2008 post.
I'm regret.
Shouldn't let guys sweet talk to me.
Isshhhkkkk. How regret I am!
I take this as lesson learnt for me.
She said,experienced it yourself rather than listen to other's experience.
This is a long journey for me.
I'm strong here.

Apart from that,
I need to gain weight like seriously.
Foods,here I come.
TGIF.
I can't wait for tml.
I can't wait for my birthday to come.
Hehehe. ;)

Nothing to update.
See you. =)

Gotta Go My Own Ways.

I'm in class now,since I got nothing to do,I'll update this blog of mine. =)

I vomitted again this morning.
Now,I got slight headache and I force myself to come to school.
I don't know what's happening to me.
Ouh nevermind.

Anw,did I mentioned about my new hair cut?
Aha,I got my hair cut last Saturday.
It's pretty short and I'm loving it.
My girls missed my curly hair.
And I think,I miss it too,but the purpose for me to cut my hair is to let go everything that happen to me. Like one of them said,turn over the leaf? Yeah right, whatever he said. But somehow I think it's true.
Hair can be grow, right people? =)

The picture of you is still in my wallet.
To find you is easy but I tried to make it hard.
Just take care of my pics like I take care of yours.

You've been tagged by SABBY.

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird
things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of
their own 10 weird things/habits/little known
facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people
to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back !

1)I love to twist my hair around when I got nothing better to do. [Since I'm a kid!]
2)Talking to myself when I'm upset/dissappointed.
3)Shy to eye contact with a guy whom I like/loved.[note the -ed]
4)I eat a little,but I get to kenyang fast.
5)Laugh at not-so-funny jokes. ;)
6)I cried when I laugh.
7)Watching peoples' behaviour from far.
8)I born at KK,lived at Tanglin Halt Rd for 6 years and live Jalan Teck Whye since I'm 7 and now I'm going 19. Count the years if u care. =)
9)I don't like being disturbed!
10)I like to disturb people tho. LOL. =)

You've been tag:
1)Kynz
2)Hafish
3)Shira
4)Nana
5)Hana
6)Mirza
7)Dila
8)Anyone who is interested.
9)Anyone who is interested.
10)Anyone who is interested.

Wait! I'm not done yet. I want to update seyy. Spear me a minute alrite. ;) Love you readers.

Advanced Networking is very interesting nowadays. Because get to play the real SWITCH although at first I'm lazy to use it. The commands is like router and the difference is that is router and this is switch. So,I'm sure you guys confused right? Right? Nevermind. Only the advanced networking people should know. ;)
Ouh well,I kept complaining to everyone that I just want to get out of Dover permises as fast as possible! Really. Lots memories were installed there and it's better for me to breathe in the fresh air and become the new Linda. No? Ok,the old selenger Linda. =) What's past is past,but I won't forget the impact. To think back,it's silllyyy for me to involve in this rship. I'm still young you see. I depends on my parents and I'm learning to do this and that. STOP! Don't want to talk about it.

Yesterday was fun and stupid! Fristly,we went to the canteen and play some riddles and jokes. We were laughing so loud when we didn't get the jokes. Went up to the class we played 'ChopCiliCho', cannot-laugh game,the ZA and read some stupid jokes on the email. Went down to the foyer and we played this game called hmm,I don't know. See,how stupid the game is. Supposed to be very Tuesday blues but ended up playing those stupid games. We were so sleepy and tired during the next lesson.

And today,it's an ok ok day ever. Siti NurSabrina please tell me that someone's name pleaseee... I really want to know.. If not,GOH,here he come for youu.. ;)
Lifeskill here and there. Not fair the ex-Nitec students get examted. Tak fair. =)
The class next door was so irritating and damn noisy like hell! Bang the door,laugh out loud like nobody bussiness and I got disturbed by those guys aka moron! Eww. Listen here,I won't wave back at moron ok. Especially,those irritating guys who think they are err cool? I want to vomit can? Just one irritating look and buat bodoh face will be just fine. Scared,I complained to Mdm Azaa... Like one kid sia. Ishh! Lets *hak dish* at them! Going back home,it's heaven... The girls know why esp Sabby. ;)

My birthday is coming soon and I need to get my own birthday present ever! Last year I bought my ZEN Stone plus,going 1 year soon. And this year,I decided to buy bags! Yeay! Bag for my birthday. Don't know what bag to buy. Maybe the bag that I always like or other? Hmm... Nevermind,I'm going shopping soon.... Anyone like to accompany me??? ;)

Lastly,I WANT TO WATCH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!! Can I watch with you. [I also don't know who is this you. HHAHAHHAH.]



Here I smile. But deep inside,only GOD knows my real feelings.....

Looking into the mirror and I see the real me. And I realised that I'm not perfect for you.........

This morning,I made this decision that I tried to avoid for a long time. Correct. After doing so much thinking for these past few days,I finally made a decision for myself. Better for me and for everyone. I've tried to be realistic but I just can't go on living in this secretive world and hiding myself all the way. Sign of realive and I'm sure about my decision. Putting all the old memories back into places and hide it somewhere I don't want to know. This 5 months have made me realised how hard life is. How hard making decision and how true the feeling of being loved and hurt. I've learnt that and I'm making it stop at the moment. The moment where I don't know when can be resume back. Maybe not now till I'm 23. I don't know. I really don't care about what other people think about me. I'm not perfect,you see.

The family has been great to me. Although they didn't show,I can sense that. Giving me advise and trying to protect me from anyone who going to hurt me. I finally realised,these family of mine wants the best from me. They want me to look really happy. They are the one who I can really rely on. THANK YOU.

I should get over it and move on. Finally,this decision come from my heart.
No more feelings of this and that.
No more heart thumping every seconds.
No more thinking about this and that.
No more waiting for calls and msges.
Everything is so past tense and back to square number 1.

13 more days..........

Two visitors came to our class to visit us today.
We were warned to wear proper uniform yesterday and some still stubborn wearing jeansssss to school. Ended up they play hide-and-seek with the head of IT. Hehehee.
First visitor is our own very principal who speak like errr.... *TUT* And 2nd visitor came all the way from Vietnam. He's the vice Minister of Vietnam. Grammar looked funny wearing the tie. Before the minister came by,Sabby introduced us this weird blog who critised about the bapok. DAMN!! It's fucking disgusting and the guys were like,OUHHHHHMANN!!!! The guys are straight,thank god. =) One of them was like,mad guy seeing those bapok. Mengucap lah ye. ;) DAN,SESUNGGUHNYA AKU SANGAT BERDOSA MELIHAT GAMBAR-GAMBAR MEREKA! Hehehehe.. Sabby,next time introduce us to a cool2 blog,can? After reading[mostly seeing] the uncensored blog,we went to some Suria's artistes' blog. A wedding photo by NurulAini's blog. We were like,awwww. Bestnyeeee. We meant the background of the picture. ;) Really cool.

By,1145,finished class and everyone was like rushing to go home. Especially the guys,they went to friday prayers. Dyla went off early too. Left me,Sabby and Ak. Waited at the foyer doing nothing and after awhile,the SC members decided to eat and I decided not to join them. My initial plan was to go home straight,but since it's too early,I headed to VIVO alone. As soon as I enter the mall,I'm shivered in cold. Walked for awhile and looking for something I don't know what is it. Since it's cold and boring,decided to get out from the cold place. Took NEL and say bye2 to VIVO. I texted someone to accompany me eat but since tt someone didn't reply,I headed home straight and guess who I bumped into???? Really make my day. ;) I guess home is a best place to make myself peace and relax. Mommy's cooking is sedap and thank you MOMMY for accompany me eating just now. I love you MOMMY!!!! You know what's best and what's not for me. I really miss you,MOMMY!!!! :(

Something,I can't shared with anyone right now. Keeping it only to myself.

Ouh GOD.... :(

I need guidence from you,god.
Protect me from any harm and trouble.
Allow me to live like normal people do.
Give me strength and hope.
Make me stand on my own feet.
Forgive all my wrong deeds towards you and the people.
Make me feel better when I'm sad.
Make me strong when I'm down.
I'm a girl with a small heart.
I'm a girl who needs to learn more.
God,forgive me............
I'm helpless girl.

Ouh God..... :(

From the way I stand,
from the way I think,
from the way I act,
and from the way I see,
I couldn't see the real me just yet.
Maybe it was infront of me but I couldn't see that.

She told me to focus on my future before anything else.
I'll try. No. I will focus on my future willingly.
At the same time,I'm not going to let 2 hearts dissappointed. Maybe,it's 3.
Those precious hearts that I really care for.

17 days still counting down.
But I don't wish to count down for that day.
Let it come,day after day,hours after hours,minutes after minutes and seconds after seconds.
Let the day come by itself without me noticing.
Accepting the day as my day.
Put on that smiley face even if you are upset.
Wish wish and wish for the good even there's bad.
17 days,still counting down.

Words can't tell the truth.
The truth hurts,I know.
But I don't need you to brag about my personal life.
Telling her about my personal stories.
I know you care,but that doesn't mean you can use your fugly words at me and saying something bad about my personal life.
I'm totally dissappointed with you tonight.
I can be stupid at times.
I can be a fool listening to my own heart instead of using my brains.
But you don't have to look me down.
Look yourself in the mirror and see what's your flaws.
Don't blame others if you are being blamed for your attitude.
You don't have to learn from the other's fault if you have your own principle.
I guess,your own mindset is much better that mine as well as theothers.
I've noticed you and your true colours will be seen one day by the others.
Critised people as you wish,looking down at people as you please. Judging people as you can.
Why? Because this what I see from YOU.
Just watch out what you've been talking about, cause,you don't know whats gonna happen ahead of you.
Reminder from me to you,KARMA do exist.

-Love,Linda-

Sowrie for the lack of updates..... AGAIN. Sowrie.

I'm down with high fever,sore throat and also flu like AGAIN!
Maybe because of the wheather or maybe because of lack of rest.
So yesterday,I forced myself to go to school eventho it's really hard for me to get up from the bed. My head spinning and while in the bathroom I vomit. No appetite to eat. And the reason for me to go to school,because of the attendance. The teacher is rushing here and there. Need to finish all the module before 13 dec. WTF?

School is no fun for me anymore because of this stupid rushing thingy. ADN,rushing. Lifeskill module also rushing. Hello? We are not robot lah for goodness sake. Long hours making me sick.

Today,I feel a bit better. Although the heat from my body is quite high,I managed to do the house work. Hopefully by Monday,I'll be ok yeah.

For those who noticed,I'm sowrie if I've been quiet since the school reopen. I'm really tired and sleepy for these past few days.

Alrite people,gtg. See you around. =)

School just started yesterday and the new timetable is really a torture for me. We will start from 8am till 5/6pm almost everyday. Except for Monday and Friday. Kalahkan orang berkerje la.. Mak oii. So,basically we have only 9 weeks left before our attachment started on January next year. We are the last batch of IT student to go to the attachment. Which means,this is gonna my last 3 months in Dover. No,we will not coming back to Dover untill Graduation Day. =) How lucky we are.

I'm in a mood of Hari Raya still. But tak semeriah lah eh. Haiyoo.. Ouh,mom's cooking is delicious. Yum yum. Yesterday and today,I ate straight after school. It's random,I know.

Ouh well,go to go now. I want to do the online test and also get myslef some rest before tomorrow starts. TC.

Hello people! It's time for a proper update of my Hari Raya outing with family members. =)





It's 2nd day of hari raya. The family went to our aunt's house over at clementi and my sis's fiance's house and also my uncle's house over at Telok Blangah. ;) The uncle decided to follow us to another house by pick-up. Just a simple raya outing. =)



My dad's side dearest cousin. =)



It's our family portrait! =) It's on the 5th day of Hari Raya.



Siblings Love.



On the way to mom's side house. From Tampinese to Jurung West. ;)















On the 6th day. =)







Went to my dad's side. We have no choice but to go at night with my sleepy eyes.



There's still more for me to update. Yesterday jalan raya with friends was great one although this year we took public transport instead of the van. Seriously speaking,my legs having a blister and hurts so much wearing those heels. We start from the northside and ends at the westside. From Bishan to Jurung West.













At my house.







It's only 8pm and i'm so sleepy.





At julia's house. She's lucky cause her house was last and we have to go back on our own.Since everyone is getting tired,we took a cab from Julia's house. I reached home at 11pm.

This post is not fully update. Just random. =)

First day of Hari Raya,as usual,stayed at home for the guest to come. Maternal side as well as paternal side. As mom is the oldest among all the unlces and aunties and we don't have any grandparents to visit,they came to my house first day of hari raya. So chaotic. ;)



















Will update more on hari Raya Outing. This year,we wore brown.

And and and I can't wait for the jalan raya with the peeps this week. ;)

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.
So far so good. For those who are going to take exams,Selamat menunaikan ibadah peperiksaan ok. Haha. =)

I just check my reults today and Alhamdulilah I passed.
[I can't sleep because of that Dream! shhsssh] =)

I'll do my proper update soon alrite. =)

And and Happy 19th Birthday Luqman. =)