When you are always gloomy,the whether will also get gloomy together with you. But once HE showed this beautiful creation up above the sky,somehow,I felt so delight. Look at the sky above,it's dark but in the middle of the darkness sky,there was a rainbow. One big Rainbow appeared before me,infront of me with the cold breeze. I was happy and everything that happened to me vanish away as I mesmerized the RAINBOW. Thank you,GOD. =)

So yesterday,I went to the clinic with the mom for my check-up. He checked my blood pressure,looked at my hands,check my pulse,look at my eyes and lastly,press my stomach. I was like,what the heck man? Am I ok or not. The checking was like so serious to me. But,Alhamdulilah,he said that,I'm ok and normal. It's just that I'm suffering for dizziness and maybe because I think too much. Stress at work or maybe stress about what happened currently. The doc just gave me 1 medicine and I should be ok by then. He also said,if still dizzy,I will need to get back to him. Chet. I will. I will get better.

Mom been very good to me cause she will serve me my favourite fruit,remind me to eat medicine and always worried for me. Adik,as usual,giving me Vitamin C and talks a lot about medicine. Pening. Thanks anw to both of you. =)

7 more days! Let's end this thing and have our gathering on 9th of March! There's so much to do during our holiday period. Mostly with the friends. They can make me alive and I'm slowly recovering from the 'sickness'. If you know what I mean. Getting msges from friends really making me happy. =) I'm gonna get my old Linda back. Ouh,those who don't know me that well,jolly well call me Haslinda. Linda are meant to be for my friends who really know me A LOT! Heh.

Ouh well,I really got to stop here cause tomorrow will be another day of working life. I'm really get use already. So,gtg and have my dinner and eat my medicine and sleep. Psst,this medicine making me sleepy.. Yawns. Selamat Malam! [Goodnight]



Be strong cause you are not desperate....

Why should I forgive him?
I hate him till I die.
I won't look back and gather all the memories. I've thrown away everything. I mean EVERYTHING! Don't mentioned about appreciation caused I appreciated EVERYTHING and enough is enough.
Still,I won't forgive you ever again....

I'll motivate myself alone. I am strong enough to see the world again. I believe,everything come for a reasons. No more dwelling,no more. I'm dissappointed cause no one making me angry and upset before. This is too much. Really.

Aku tak sempurna. Aku hanya manusia biase ynag mempunyai perasaan. Tetapi aku masih bersyukur dengan ape yng terjadi.

ALHAMDULILAH

Tuhan telah menunjuk aku perkara yang sebenar.
The truth hurts,but,aku redha dan aku pasrah dengan ape yng terjadi.
Syukur padamu Ya Allah kerane menyelamatkan aku dari dia.
Things happen for a reason. Aper yng terjadi,aku jadikannye sebagai tauladan yang harus aku pelajari. Aku brsyukur padamu kerana kau telah menunjuk aku siape diri dia yng sebenar. Hati aku remuk tetapi,mungkin ini ada hikmah disebalik ape yng terjadi.
Alhamdulilah,kau telah kabulkan doa-doa ku selame ini. Berilah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran supaye aku dapat melupakannye. Lindungilah diri ku. Aku bersyukur pademu.

A COWARD is the one who have done wrong and will never looked back straight to your face. He will looked to the floor and pretend that he never did anything wrong. Macm rase tak bersalah gitu. A COWARD like him will always be a COWARD forever. Have a cheek to judge my behaviour. Buy a lot of mirror so that you can see your own face and die with it. I'm done with you. Aku jijik tengok muke kau. Tuhan,jauhilah aku dengan orng-orng yang tak ade perasaan. Amin....

So,she will be the next victim of yours.

Thank you,friend.

Karma...will haunt you down,coward.

Don't bother about my eyes. It's rolling because Sabby disturb me. Hehehe. Anw,this pic was taken last Friday. A short meet up with the girls over at west area (like duh) and thought of having double choc but our stomach were making different kind of noise. Hungry and we grabbed our meal straight away.



We gossip about some artist and model and talked about after life. Anw,thanks for the listening ears girls. I had fun on Friday despite my sickness. I forced myself to eat and lucky no vomit session that I need to bare. It's really painful. :( I miss you guys already. And AK,thank you for the chocolate. So sweet of you. =)



Look at her. She love to tease me with that kind of face. Hymp. Merajok ar.

I vomitted again yesterday after I ate KFC and mom asked me to visit the doc when off day. I don't want anything happen to me. I want my friends to pray for my health please.I'm in normal state and when time come,this sickness come and it's very painfull. For those who 'accuse' me of getting this and although it's just a joke,I find it not funny. Stop 'accusing' me like that. I'm not that bad. PLEASE! Thank you.

I am curious,why guys so easy to fall in love eventhough they are in relationship as well as after breakup? It's easy for them to let the love they built after so long just like that. Falling in love is hard for me. Anw,my dreams all shattered long time ago and it's hard for me to 'built' that dreams again. All I can do is to feel happy. Act and I will try my best to bring my old Linda back. One thing,I'm tired to see all my dreams shattered eversince secondary 5.




Who will be beside me when I need some support?? :'(

Sorry for the super late update. I don't know what to blog actually. There's so many things happened to me for the past days. I'm really get tired chasing my own dreams that is obviously won't come true. I just can't stand a liar. I'm Dissappointed by the way people treating me. Really pissed me off. They don't know how I really feel deep inside. I pretend nothing happened but the truth is I'm broken inside. If this what they want,I'm letting them go with my heart wide open. Because,I'm dead inside you. "What do you want from me??" question really hit me hard. Thank You!



I miss these ladies very much. I even print out these picture just to place it in my notebook at work. You can see a note just for you people. But I've to keep it to myself. One word for you ladies,THANK YOU! You ladies melt my heart no matter what. I Love You,ladies. ;)On the 16/02/2009,it's our 1 year 10 months together. I miss Sabby,AK and Dyla very much. Since Julia,I've met her almost everyday till we bullied each other at work. LOL. I cannot wait for tommorow to come. It's Double Chocolate Night with them. =)









Ouh god,I'm having a slight fever and I vomitted almost everyday. Morning,during wokr and night. It's the same sickness I get since last year. Dizzy and my appettite is getting lower and lower. Adek,told me to go to see a doctor cause she scared there's something wrong with me. If you are a loyal reader,I'm scared of seeing a doctor as well as swallowing the pills. Thanks to adek for giving vitamin C. Maybe because,I'm lack of vitamins. I asked one of my friend this question,"What if I'm warded in hospital?" Guess what he told me? "Iskk kau nie. Jangan seyy.Seumur hidup aku,aku tak pernah warded." I guess,this is my fate. If,I have this sickness,I'll just say Alhamdulilah,cause everything come from HIM.

On a lighter note of this entire blog,I received a letter from school and I recieved this award. Don't know when can I take the award,guess I need to wait for the school lor. Ouh yeah,I got my 1st ever pay throughout my entire life. My 1st pay,thought I want to treat somone special last time,but since everything was over,I can use that money to shop for my own need! ;) And lastly,2 more weeks to go to end this attachment! I can't wait. I can't wait. *skips around* To Amrul,pelan pelan kayuh ye. :)

I think,I'm going to change my handphone number sooner or later. To wash away and to forget everything that happened to me. This number is unique in someway. I've been using this number since secondary 3. To change or not to change? Hmm.



Look? Whose a liar now? Me or you?

I am trying very hard to survive.
Sometimes,I think,it's difficult to stay 'alive' when there's problems around you.
My weakest link is to cry over minor thing. Some stupid things. I don't mind to shed my tears cause,I get used to it already. I just can't handle problems. Too hard to handle.

Take a look at the date for today. It's weird and it's scary. But I'm glad today nothing bad happen to me and I'm safe and secure here,at my home. Tommorow,argh,don't want to comment about that. Thank you for the gift,Brenda. Valentines day cum Friends day. I love goodie bag and I love chocolates.

Haze is coming to town. It's really hard to breathe and I really need to bring my oxygen tank here. It's hot,humid and my lips are all dried up.

I'm jealous,cause people are still watching and reading the Twillight. I'm jealous,cause,I didn't get to watch in theather. Because of my stupidity! My bad,my mistakes. =( I want to cry again...

I'm done blogging. My life is bored. But Facebook is my current addiction. ;) I want to eat sotong,now.




..When the image of you appear,I cried....

3 more weeks left to end this attachment. I'm done with the registeration of the schools and I just hope I can make it! 5 choices and it's hard for me to decide. I hope I can make it. Amin.

Work still sucky cause till now we haven't get our 1st pay! Time management please. When you said 2 weeks of the month of February,it means 2 weeks! Still haven't process our OT form! Argh,makesure by the end of the week I received my pay,if not,I'm gonna complained to the school. Please don't treat us like one student who doesn't know anything. Please treat us like one of your worker ok! Arghh.

Everyone is sick nowadays. Mom,adek and sister sicked and thanks to the whether I think. I just hope I won't sick this year cause the year 2008 I've been sicked like almost every 2 months. Jauhilah diriku dari demam. Amin.

Today,gonna wish,Happy 25th Birthday to Abang! I love you. May ur dreams come true ok. Please be a good abang for us! Sorry if we are such an ass towards you. However,we will gonna sayang you very much! Happy birthday,abang!



Ouh gtg now,cause I haven't had my bath yet. I know I'm smelly,but who cares anyway. Hehehe.

...I kept dreaming about you when the night comes....

Happy 19th Birthday,sweetheart! May your dreams come true and I will always love awak like your boyfriend love you k. Stay cheerful and happy always,cousin! Many kisses from Linda to Shira. =)

No time to go out for fun,believe me!

Alhamdulilah,at least I managed to smile even if it's hard.

I'm tired. I'm too tired to even look at the computer. This week no,for the past few days,meetings for project work and trying to figure out how to do and thanks to our friend of mine yeah. Still thinking why the hell are we doing this for? For improving their company? Don't think so far,brother!

On Thursday,we decided to meet him over at Bishan library after work to discuss about the project. We are tired but we need to discuss this if not,we really had no time for this. With work and project to do,really we got no time! In fact no time for this unnecessary project. Thanks to him and thanks guys for 'camping' at the Bishan Park till the next day. I'm tired.



Before heading back home. Just look at the time and our face. We are forced to smile! Ouh,on the lighter note,all of us get a hang bao from the company.

Emails ouh emails,where are you,sucker? We got nothing to do from 9am till 530pm today. Such a bore and we can't do project as the person in-charge is off today and Hafizz and I stared at the computer doing nothing. Cannot sleep,cannot surf net and all we do is IP at each other.





That's my desk and my 'beloved' computer! I don't know when is our pay day. Everyone kep asking when is the pay day. Hurry can?

I imagined,life without technology. People's without feelings. The feelings of missing,love,sad,angry. Neutral. People no need to fall in love. Just go dating and that's it. No feelings for each other. Let's just imagine if we have no heart and feelings and no technology? Do you want to be like that? I wonder...



....life is full of lots of up and downs,
and the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
and there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down....

I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY AM I GETTING INVOLVE IN THIS KIND OF PROJECT THAT I DIDN'T RECALL A SINGLE THING OF WHAT I LEARNT! ALL THEY ASKED FOR WAS 'I WANT THIS AND I WANT THAT'! OR DO YOU WANT OUR SHIT?! OTHER PEOPLE ARE ENJOYING THIER ATTACHMENT BUT NOT US! I'M ANGRY AND TIRED AND FRUSTRATED AND MARAH AND ..........................

I'm sorry for the upper case words. I can't control my feelings becasue of this 1 project. I should have gone to school to do this right! A big son of the gun betul! I benci u know. Benci benci. Ok stop it. I sound so mentel over here. ;) I'm gonna get sick soon,my eyes is pain,my skin is so dull and dry. My hair arghh,kept falling. I felt like I'm having a luekemia.

Ouh man,I need someone beside me right now. I want someone who have pity on me to sit beside me and lent me his/her shoulder please. I don't want to cry but I want someone to hear my story my stressfull life indeed. I live in a nightmare. I hate nightmares. :( Seriously,I'm losing my grip. Tommorrow will be my long day/night together with the team. I think I want to bring tent,extra clothes and food to sleepover at someone's house,can? Haha. Better get ready for tommorow. It's like doing the case study together.

...and I don't want to be a girl who laugh the loudest........

A lonely road that I have to walk and suddenly,I felt so lonely....

This week we are getting lesser and lesser emails. With the number of peoples on their desk busy replying emails,the emails stop as early as 11am. We got the remaining hours by just sitting around and looking at others who are busy doing their project. Project. It's not as easy as the school project. With his high expectations,I don't think we can managed to do it. I called him,angan-angan tinggi melambung sampai ke planet MARS. Getting fed-up with his 'great' suggestion! Whatever! He talked as if this thing can be done for 4 weeks. I suggest you to try and do what you suggested to us,dude. Plus,the way you speaked to us that Friday really annoying. It's easy for you to say cause,you just ordered us doing this and that but you never know how hard to do this! Let's crack our brains people!

I just don't like people disturbing my sleeping hours especially when you need to wake up for work tomorrow. The frustrated part was that,he just called for nothing and who the hell are you? Calling in the middle of the night without purpose? Don't act dumb and don't you dare to call me again cause I'm going to press the red button just for you! I don't care if you msg me but please,don't call unless there's something important to say! Go and do some house chores if you can't sleep at night and making other people's life suffer. Get a life!

Pardon me for the angry-frustrated post. This week,people around me just love to see me in this mood. Work,at home,my life. People don't know my exact feelings here unless I tell. They just look at my outer look but not my inner me. I cried whenever I calmed myself down. The way they talked to me sometimes it hurts deep inside my heart but since I got Him,I try my very best to be patience. Look at the brighter side of me and get back in a peace state. I laugh like a normal people. I just need to be strong enough to pull my sadness away.

4 critical weeks left and let's see where should I go from here. Endurance is the important pillar for you,Linda.



....and finally i say te amo to you.......