This morning,I made this decision that I tried to avoid for a long time. Correct. After doing so much thinking for these past few days,I finally made a decision for myself. Better for me and for everyone. I've tried to be realistic but I just can't go on living in this secretive world and hiding myself all the way. Sign of realive and I'm sure about my decision. Putting all the old memories back into places and hide it somewhere I don't want to know. This 5 months have made me realised how hard life is. How hard making decision and how true the feeling of being loved and hurt. I've learnt that and I'm making it stop at the moment. The moment where I don't know when can be resume back. Maybe not now till I'm 23. I don't know. I really don't care about what other people think about me. I'm not perfect,you see.

The family has been great to me. Although they didn't show,I can sense that. Giving me advise and trying to protect me from anyone who going to hurt me. I finally realised,these family of mine wants the best from me. They want me to look really happy. They are the one who I can really rely on. THANK YOU.

I should get over it and move on. Finally,this decision come from my heart.
No more feelings of this and that.
No more heart thumping every seconds.
No more thinking about this and that.
No more waiting for calls and msges.
Everything is so past tense and back to square number 1.

13 more days..........