I'm in the middle of study mode and my heart and my brain are 'heavy' to continue.
DBP test is tomorrow and I've just writing down some notes on my paper. Before I cry while I study,let me just type out something here.

I can be strong when,they are here beside me.
But when I'm alone,something is always in my mind,thinking and thinking and 'this' thing come out but I ignored it.
Everyone have their own stories to share but as for me,I kept my mouth shut. To recall what happened,it's painful.
Once,I hold back my tears,but today,I let the tears rolling down my cheeks as soon I stared 'at the back'.
What I said to her yesterday,was somehow true but deep inside my heart,there's this 'thing' loitering around in my heart.
One of my old fren said,"you was strong enough for this,how come it turn out to be like this?"
Just so you know,I'm weak when it involve my heart.
So,should I say I lost or should I say I've win the battle?
I'm still wise enough to think what's good and what's bad for me.
But..... Why? Why I ended up being like one kid,who need to be taught?
I'm dissappointed and I regret.
Can I hold on to the pole this time round??

I'm half-hearted.
Should I follow one of my heart or should I follow the other one?

I lose my concentration on my studies and I just can't be bother for my test tomorrow.
I'm losing myself.
Let's just ctrl + C tml.

I Live In A Lonely Road........